The Troubled Trouble-Maker

Guess What People? I Went To Mom's Work Place To Get Counseled.

Yes, I, Ian Chee, Went To Seek Help From A Counselor At Hospital Kuala Lumpur. I Am That Stressed Out.

So How Does It Feel To Talk To A Stranger Who's Profession Is To Help Others See Life From A Better Perspective And Live Life A Way That's Worth Living? Quite A Load Off My Head, Probably Because I'm Planning To Rely On Her Intervention Skills To Help Solve My Life's Crisis.

Just A Short Update Before I Get Bored To Death.

Adieu To Y'all. Probably New Year's Eve Will Be A Happening Day. Hopefully, Rather Than Probably.

Post Christmas Post

Well, Merry Christmas And A Happy New Year People. Sorry, No Poems This Time Around.

A Christmas Eve Well Spent On My Part, I'd Say. Celebrated At Shangee's Place Where We Had Loads Of Food, Fun And Insomnia.

The Day Started With Me Doing Really last Minute Shopping For The Night's Gift Exchange Session. Being Me, Who's Got No Experience In Buying Stuff For People, I Spent Close To 2 Hours Wondering Around Times Square Aimlessly, Trying To Figure Out What Would Be The Best Present To Give That Anyone Could Use. Finally Got It, But Since The Shop's Got No Wrapping Paper, I Decided That Taping The Small Plastic Bag Real Tight Would Do The Trick. Rushed Home After Catching The Movie 'Bodyguards And Assassins', A Story About The Guy Responsible For The Chinese Revolution Against The Ruling Dynasty And The People Involved In Ensuring He Does His Job Safely.

By The Time I Got Home, It Was Already Time To Leave For Shangee's Place, But Due To Delays For Multiple Reasons, We Got There At About 7, And Only Then Did We Actually Began Cooking. What Did We Cook? 3 Packs Of Spaghetti With 2 Different Sauces And Loads Of Nuggets And Frankfurters. And So The Cooking (And Food-Theft) Went On Until Close To 11.30p.m While We Waited For Everyone To Arrive. And So The People Who Were Present Were:

I Myself, Yong Kang, CK, Yao, Yiting, Shangee The Host, His GF Yee Ping a.k.a Yainka, His Housemate Chun Hong, The Guy's GF Donica, Vincent, The 3 PJ Gals Abby, Esther And Another Of Their Housemates Whos Name I've Forgotten (So Very Sorry About That), A Grand Total Of 13 People.

And We Ate, Crapped And Listened To Kenny G's Christmas Pieces While Waiting For Midnight.

This Here's The Front Door.
The View From 18 Floors Above Ground.
Some Of The Decorations, The 3rd Being The Never Ringing Bell.
The Effect Would've Been Great If I Could Get A Pic Of The Fan Spinning, Which I Can't... Why Isn't The W902 Equipped With CyberShot!?
The Christmas Tree That Came All The Way From Port Dickson, Supposedly. Stacked To Waist-Height With Newspaper LOLZXD.
The Whole Reason For The Gathering, Albeit Very Much Welcoming All Others Present.
And The Ultimate Cocktail Of The Night!!!
Anyone Can Guess The Ingredients?
*Drums Roll*
Loads Of Fruits, 4.5 Litres Of Ice-Cream Soda And 1/2 Can Of Guiness Stout. The Hardest Part Was To Equalize The Alcoholic Taste With That Of The Lemon So That It Doesn't Taste Too Awkward. Result? A Masterpiece. Recipe By Si Panjang Himself. Gourmets: Si Panjang And I ';..;'
And Of Course, One Masterpiece Deserves Another. A Cake Baked Personally By Esther. IF You'd Tasted It, You'd Never Believe It Was Home-Baked.

So When We Were Done With All The Foam Spray And Such After The Clock Hit 12, We Got On The The Gift Exchange Session. Worrying That Mine Was Less Relevant Due To The Fact That I Decided On It In A Rush, I Openly Declared That The Gift Would Be Of Use To Anyone Except Me. And So We Drew Lots To Decide Who Gets Who's Present. And When I Got Donica's Present, Chun Hing Asked Me A Real Awkward Question:

"Do You Have A Girlfriend?"
"No..."
"Well Then, Here's Wishing You Get One Soon XD"
"Okay...?"

When It Was Time To Open The Gifts, I Realize What He Meant.
One Very Similar To The One I Got For The Night, Which Was Received By Him Later. And So The Night Ended, Or So It Did For Some, While Others Stayed On For DotA Sessions Until It Was 6a.m Or So.

A Few Facts Before I Conclude This Post:

1. This Is Probably The Post Most Heavily Loaded With Pics This Blog Has Ever Seen And Will Ever See.
2. As Shangee Himself Plays The Guitar, Chun Hong Does The Keyboard And Violin. A House Of Musicians, I'd Say.
3. This Post Was Not Published On Christmas Because I Was Supposed To Sleep The Whole Day The Moment I Got Home, But Was Instead Dragged Out By Father To Eat Some 'Exquisite Food'. Spend More Than 12 Hours Sleeping On Christmas Day, 8pm Onwards.

Ever Since Returning From Kampar My Emotions Have Once Again Been On A Roller Coaster. I'm As Ignorant As Ever If It's For Better Or Worse, But I've Been Having Sleepless Nights Since. From Tragic Love-Story Nightmares To Day-Dreaming In The Shower. A Symptom Of Home Sickness, Perhaps? Or Something More... Direct? I Don't Know. All I Do Know Is That The Result Of This Fluctuating Heart Has Led Me To Doing Really Bizarre Things, Things That I'd Never Do Under Normal Circumstances, Like Bugging Mom To Get Me A PS3, Something I've Given Up On For A Whole Year Already. Sometimes Things Go A Little More Extreme, Like The Urge To Buy A Life-Sized, Razor-Edged Replica Of Yamato （閻魔刀） Of Devil May Cry Off E-Bay And Go Omnislashing Like Crazy. And This Afternoon While Accompanying Father To Low Yat To Look For His New Anti Virus, I Saw The Razer Imperator On Sale And Suddenly Came This Urge To Just Grab It Together With A Lycosa Mirror Edition And A Megasoma, Then Flee The Scene.

And As New Year Draws Nearer, It'll Probably Be The First New Year That I'll Have A New Year's Resolution: Creating A FaceBook Account, Seeing As How The Votes Have Been Stuck At 48:1. Well, It's Open Until New Year's Eve, So Keep Them Coming, People!

So Until Then, Adieu To Y'all.

Result Of The Mix

The Past Week In Kampar Was More Enjoyable Than What I Initially Predicted. Infinite Thanks To Our Honoured Special Guest, Maggie, For Making It Happen. And Back Home, Well... Let's Just Say Things Did Not Go As Smoothly As I Should Always Be.

Okay, First Few Things I Noticed At Home Is That All The Fans Are Changed To New Ones, There's A Ceiling Fan In My Room And The Shower Heater's Been Replaced. Good Thing, No Doubt, But The Package Comes With Father's Irrational Mental Schema. I Guess The Previous Post Explains That Part.

And So, My First Night At Home Wasn't All Sweet Dreams And Such, For I've Been Awoken By A Multitude Of Unrelated Nightmares, Such As Killed By A Valkyrie, Splashed Off A Tall Building With Blood, etc.

Hopefully Tonight's Christmas Eve Party At Shangee's Place Would Be An Enjoyable One. I Wonder If I Can Find Presents In Time For Tonight's Exchange...

Adieu To Y'all. To The No.19 Gang, See Y'all Tonight. Others, When Your Plans Are Finalized Provided They Don't Clash.

Light To Dark To Light

Ah... Home Sweet Home. But It's Really A Bitter-Sweet Thing, Actually. Home, That Is. Upon Returning My Manager Tells Me I've Got To Star In Another 2 Or So Dramas. Which I've Seriously Had Enough Of.

Goddad's 2nd Daughter's Marriage Is Near, And He's Asked Me To Do Something Grand On That Day. And My Biological Arse Of A Father Would Deny Me That Honour. Why? Because He's Got 4 Dead Relatives Within A Year And Is Afraid That If Some Shit Called 'Bad Luck' Befalls The Groom's Family We'd Be Blamed. Well, If You Ask Me, Chinese Customs Aside, It's Bullshit, When One Calls Himself A Non-Superstitious Person.

That's Right. His Words Were "I'm Not Superstitious, I'm Just Afraid Of Bad Luck" And Infinite Other Variations Of The Same Meaning. A Hypocritical Jerk That Should've Died 3 Years Ago That Continues His Arse Of An Existence To Torture Others Close By. His Excuse, Projection Of His Superstitious Self Towards The Groom's Family, When He's Never Even Met Them. Many Times I'd Just Wanna Slam The Facts Into His Face, getting Him To Accept That He's The Superstitious One, And Not Anyone Else.

And Who The Fuck Was He To Say That I'm A Nobody To Goddad? ME? NOBODY!? It's YOU Who's The Nobody. Just Because You'd Not Allow Me To Be His God Son Doesn't Mean I'm A Nobody. That's Not For You To Decide, You Arsehole.

And You'd Ask Him For Favours When You'd Deny Him This Small Thing? He's Not Even Asking YOU To Do ANYTHING! The Request Was Directed To ME! And You'd Deny Him Even That Small Thing!!!

And Thanks To His Bloody Existence, I'd Have To Gamble My Eardrums For A Simple 3 Days 2 Nights Vacation, Every Time There Are Plans For One. I'll Never Forget The Kuala Selangor Incident, Where Expenses Were Paid, Food Bought, Reservations Made, And Just The Night Before I Depart He Tells Me "If You Go, Then Don't Come Back" From Out Of Nowhere. His Reason? Flood. Well, Even If There's Gonna Be A Flood, So What? It's Not Like I'd Die If I Get Water on My Knees. And If He Ever Finds Out Of The Latest Trip To Penang He'd Be Sure To Shit On And On About Tsunami Or Something. And As Anyone Would Know, His Choice Of Words Are Most Unkind, Never Failing To Pierce The Heart Of Whoever Who Listens, Regardless Who Those Words Were Meant For.

Seriously, Father. For Your Own Good I Hope You Would One Day Read The Entirety Of This Blog. Only Then Would You Know How Much Pain You Put Me Through, And How Lifelike My Life Has Been Without You Messing It Up. I'd Tell You Personally, In 2 Years Time, After I Complete My First Degree. No Doubt This Knowledge Will Break Your Pride So Bad You'd Die, But I'd Rather Kill You With This Fact Than Let You Kill Others With Your Pointless Pride, Terrible Choice Of Words, Unmatched Ignorance, Never Ending Hypocrisy And Baseless Superstition.

Adieu To Y'all. Enlightenment Comes With A Price That Most Idiots Cannot Afford To Pay.

Behold The Greatness Of Darkness

This Is A Short Post Solely To Announce That Darkness Therapy Works Wonders For Me.

What Is Darkness Therapy? A Therapy I Came Up With Where You Go Take A Bath In Darkness, The Only Illumination Being The Moon And Streetlights If Any, While Listening To Your Favourite Soft Music.

And Yeah Exams Are Over So See Y'all In A Bit.

Until Then, Adieu To Y'all.

4 Hour Countdown To temporary Freedom

Its 2 Hours To My Final Paper. And I Can't Confidently Say That I've Revised Sufficiently. But Whatever. That's How Things Have Been All This While.

Secondo Passo Is Finally Done And Released, But I Was Expecting A Very Much longer Story Instead Of A 1 Hour OVA. But Then Again I Guess It Was Enough To Sate My Emotions That Were Close To Erupting Once Again.

Which Is A Good Thing For Our Guest Of Honour Is Here And I Wouldn't Want To Be Screaming My Lungs Out In Stormy Weather In Her Presence.

And Of Course, I Regret That I Predicted This Semester To Be A Horrendously Bad One. Why? Because It's Proven To be Worse That What I Thought It Would Ever Be. In Campus I'm Pretty Much Bored To Hell But At Home (Kampar And KL Alike) There's So Much Unnecessary Drama Which I'm Part Of. And Seriously, The Drama Part Was Really Uncalled For. Nothing Sucks More That Than Company Being Robbed And Dragged Into A Drama When All Others In The Periphery Are Dragged Into The Melodramatic Story Of The Unfaithfulness Of Another. Yes, Like Mr. Despair, I'm Not Fond Of Getting Involved In The Drama Of Other People's Lives, Let Alone Star In One As One Of The Main Supporting Characters.

Oh Yeah, This Post Will Be A Tribute To The 2 Topics Discussed In Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei; Involved In The Drama Of Others And Also Non-Reporting. Sometimes When You Are Able To Get Yourself Far From All The Ruckus There's Just Gotta Be Something Or Someone Telling You What you Don't Want To Know, That, In The End, Puts You In The Said Drama That You Were Dying To Avoid. So What I'd Say For Today Is:

Being Dragged Into The Drama Of Others Because Of Too Much Unnecessary Reporting Has Left Me In Despair.

And Perhaps I Left Some Confusion The Last Time, So Now Let me Clear The Clouds; On One Side, It's Still Debatable Whether Or Not One Is Committing Hypocrisy Deliberately Or Unintentionally, Though The Individual's Recent Activity And Behaviour Has Obviously Been Heavily Influenced By The Other. On The Other Side, It's Rather Obvious That Others Would See Such Actions In Bad Faith, And It Matters Not What The Person Thinks Personally, For In The End, In Our Local Eastern Culture, What Matters Most Is Not What You Think, But What Others Think Based On Your Actions. So Yeah, You Are In The Wrong, No Matter What You Think Nor Whatever Explanations You Have To Offer, For As Long As Society Perceives Your Deeds As Deviant, That Is What You Are, No Matter How Strong You May Try To Prove Otherwise. And I Would Only Ask of This; Release Your Prey. Set It Free. Go Trap Another That Means Little To Us.

Trivia Related To The Recent Hot Topic: Did You Know That Male Chimpanzees Have Bigger Balls Than Male Humans And Male Humans Have Bigger Balls Than Gorillas? Why The Inverted Ratio Of Body Size To Testicle Size? Doesn't Make Sense Right? Well The Logic Behind It Is That The Smaller The Male Testicles Of A Species In Relation To Body Size, The More Loyal The Female Of The Species Is To Its Mate, Based On Scientific Observation. Thus Meaning That Female Gorillas Are More Faithful Than Female Humans, The Same Way Female Chimpanzees Are Less Trustworthy Than Humans When It Comes To Mating. Which Proves My Previous Point: Humans DO NOT Mate For Life, Regardless Of Whatever Evidence There Was, For Finding Evidence Is Easy, You're Surrounded By Them. Proof, Now That's Hard.

Adieu to Y'all. Looking Forward To A Less Dramatic Drama. And Maybe Even One Of My Own, For The Likeliness Is Inversed Infinity.

Untold Factors In An Untold Drama

Finally My 3 Day Emotional Eruption Has Ended And At Last I Can Focus On Studying. But While My Drama Has Ended, A New One Has Intensified.

It Is Sometimes Amazing How One Attracts Unwanted Attention When One Does Not Practice What One Preaches. And Though It Has Happened For Quite Some Time, I Only Felt Suspicious Of It About, Say, A Month Ago?

Perhaps So. Especially When A Single Bird Leaves Its Flock (Or Should I Say Harem?) And Instead Attaches Itself To Another, Probably Seeking The Attention Of Only One Among The New One. And Indeed It Blurs The Boundaries Between Direct Or Induced Hypocrisy, And Thus Of Innocence And Guilt. Makes Me Wanna Do A Re-Evaluation Of The Animals In This World That Mate For Life. But One Thing I Can Be Certain Of; Humans Do Not, Regardless Of How Previous Researches, The Legal System Or Marriage Or Even Our Global Societal Morals May Make It Seem Otherwise. After All, We, Humans, Too, Are Animals. Great Sigmund Freud Has Embraced The Ugly Truth That Many Failed (And Are Still Failing) To Accept.

Ahh... How I Wish For Clairvoyance, More Than Ever Now. With It I Could See My Own Fate And Decide If This Life Is Worth Living On.

Oh Well, Adieu To Y'all. We Await An Honoured Visitor.

It Is Done...

I Done It. I Lost Control Of Myself. For The First Time Since Coming To Kampar. I've Shown My Instability, My Weakness, To All Around Me Again. Over What? The Same Thing Every Time This Happens. It Has Erupted. With A Night's Time To Cool Down.

Again I Have Succumbed To Ethereal Wounds. Bled False Blood. Exchanged My Sanity For A Void. An Unfathomable, Unlimited Void That Cannot Be Filled. How Many Times More Must I Erupt To Keep Myself From Dying From The Inside?

What Will It Take To Free Myself From This Torment? An Instinctive Drive, Or An Emotional Passion? ...? ... ... ...

And I've Decided. 3 Hearts Aren't Right. There Are More Than Merely 3 Illusions Of A Heart, And Less Than 1 True To Itself. So Yeah. They're Out Of Here.

Adieu To Y'all. Revelation Is So Close Yet So Far...

The Dream Within

Had A Real Wierd Dream These Few Days That Really Got Me Thinking Random Stuff About Life. Life. Living Life, Study Life, Work Life, Gaming Life, Family Life, Love Life, Afterlife. What Did I Miss? Oh Well...

The Latest Was Like The '2nd Episode Of The Installment' Thingy, Where Like The First, I Find Myself In A Cave-Like Prison, Much Like The One Son Goku Of Kazuya Minekura's Saiyuki Series Was In. Staring Into The Permanently Setting Sun, Giving Up All Hopes Of Escape, I Wonder To Myself: What If This Is What's Deep Within My Unconscious Mind? What If In Reality I'm Just Like In The Dream, Trapped In Some Cage Or Prison Of Sorts, Waiting For Eternity For Someone To Come By And Free Me From This Hell That Is Nothingness, Where Everything Is Constant, Never Changing And Permanent? What Would be Beyond This Confinement? Change? Age? Death That Will End This Permanence That Is Pain And Loneliness? But More Importantly, Will This Someone Ever Come? Or Will My Mind And Soul Die Off Due To Inactivity While The Physical Body Continues To Stare At The Golden Orb In The Sky? Or Will My Heart Burst And Erupt In Anticipation, Driving Me To Punish My Physical Self More Until It Breaks? Or Will It Erupt In Despair Instead, Knowing That What It Desires Is Not What The Mind Seeks?

Many Times When These Thoughts Come To Mind, I Don't Feel Like Destroying All That's Around Me. Rather, I Feel Like Destroying Myself, For Desiring Something That Can Never Be Mine. The Perfect Life, The Best Of Academic Success, Committing Myself To A Mundane And Repetitious Routine To Support Myself While Enjoying, The Dream Of Bringing The Gaming Industry Into A Level Where The Malaysian Government Can Take It Seriously, A Hate-Free Relationship With Family - Biological Or Otherwise, And, Probably Most Important Of All; Hot, Passionate Love That I Can Be Sure It's No Mere Infatuation Or Lust.

Hell... When I See People Enjoying Any Of The Above, I Don't Feel Like Killing Them Out Of Envy Or Jealousy And Such. I Feel Like Killing Myself Out Of Self-Pity; For Desiring Something I Know I Can Never Have.

*Sigh*... It's Been Quite Some Time That I've Been Emo To This Extreme. Perhaps I Revealed Too Much. But No Matter. To People Who Know Me Well, They'd Understand. To Those Who Don't Know Me That Well Yet, Well, There's Something More About Me. To People Who Don't Know Me, Well... It Won't Matter To You Right? Since You Don't Know Me You'd Probably Forget You Ever Read This...

*Sigh*... No Doubt Watching Chobits Had Some Relation To These Thoughts And Dreams, Or So I Believe. And Speaking Of Which, Chobits Is Close To The Best 'Ear Candy' For Me, As 2 Of My Favourite Seiyuus Are In It: Inoue Kikuko And Tanaka Rie.

Adieu To Y'all. Until I Discover What Meaning Do These Dreams Imply In This Life Of Mine.

A Foul-Mouthful

Many Things To Say, With So Little Attention To Give.

Well, Exams Starts Tomorrow. Nothing Much To Say Regarding That Topic I Suppose. I've Revised, But I Can't Say I'm Prepared. Not After Looking At The Past Year Papers (A First For Me Since Entering UTAR). Yes, Those Papers Tell Me That I Gotta Sleep Extremely Early Today To Revise More Extremely Tomorrow. And Before That I Got Myself Distracted By So Many Things That Could Wait. Hell, I'm Being Distracted Even Now.

Well, For One Thing, Since The Last Post I Realized A Couple Of Things. First Being The Realization That Ian Is A Fairly Common Name In Malaysia. Okay, Not As Common As The Likes Of John Or Anne But Still, Not As Rare As I Once Thought It Was. To Put It More Bluntly, I Realize That I'm Not All That Special After All. Not That I Did Before, But You Get The Idea.

Secondly, I Realized That I Don't Live Up To My Own Standard/Status. Or Rather, I Live Exorbitantly Beyond It. Sure Everyone Else Is In A Way, But Perhaps I Pushed This Factor Of Mine A Little Too Far. Puma Shoes And It Being The Only Pair Of Sneakers I Wear For More Than A Year, Sony Ericsson Walkman Phones When I Don't Make Full Use Of Certain Features Like TrackID, Razer Gaming Peripherals When My Only Gaming Platform Is A Jacky Acer Laptop That Hangs Miserably Without 3rd Party Software Skyrocket-Boosting Processor Performance And Thoroughly Skimming And Freeing RAM, What Else... Ah Yes. A 1Terabyte External Hard Disk Drive For Seeding All My Previous Downloads When I Live In Malaysia Where The Local Broadband Provider Halves P2P Connection Speeds (Not That It's Usual Connection Is Any Good, And It's Really Adding Up To The Overall Stress).

And Yes. Thirdly I'm Currently Downloading Chobits, When Exams Are Tomorrow. HELL YEAH BABYH!!! MAKE COMPLETE USE OF 1TERABYTE YEEEAAAAAAHHHH!!!

No Doubt Freeing Hard Disk Space From The Computer Did Make My Gaming Experiences A Little Smoother. Speaking Of Gaming Experience, Have I Told You Guys How The DeathAdder Took It Up A Notch? HELL YEAH BABY!!! I Feel Like A Pro Just By Using It. Not That The Diamondback Was Poorer. But, Y'Know, New Stuff Have New Firmware That Makes The Difference. So Yeah. This Small Section Here Is Dedicated To The Everglide Titan, My First Gaming Surface, Razer Diamondback, My First Gaming Mouse, And Of Course, The New Razer DeathAdder And Sphex, That Make My PC Gaming Experience Worth Experiencing.

Sigh... Though I'm Obviously Drained, I Still Feel All Crazy, High And Mighty. Must Be The Heat That's Doing This To Me. Yes, No Doubt About That. And When The Heat Extracts The Oil From Your Face So Efficiently You'd Wish You Could Sell Them Off For Some Profit To Make Up For All The Suffering It Puts You Through.

Phew... Oh Well, Adieu To Y'all. Hopefully A Real Sphex Will Come By And Eat Up All The Beetles That Are Obviously Also Driven Crazy By This Heat And Disturbing My Sleep.

Retiring From Career = Retiring From Slumps

They Say That When Pros Suddenly Have A Bad Performance Streak, It Means That They've Hit A Slump And Should Take A Break But Never Give Up. So Yeah. Now I'm Retiring For A Very Very Long Time, Close To For Good, For This Is No Slump. It's A Goddamn Curse That I've Suddenly Turned Rusty For Good Despite All The Training. A Legacy Of Training Years, Turned Into A Year Of Downward Diving With Hopes Of Me Climbing Back Up As Slim As Me Not Getting Pissed For Not Being Awarded What I Deserve While Some Chump With A Larger Fan-Base Gets The Medal.

Forgive The Lengthy Expression. To Put Things Simple, Some Guy Who's Got More People Cheering For Him's Got A Gold While Others Who Perform Much Better Bites The Dust. And Since This Has Been Going On For Such A Long Time, It's Impossible That It's A Mere Slump, And So I Am Giving Up In Pursuing A Professional Career In What Might Be The Only Thing I Dare Call Myself Pro At: Taekwondo.

That Very Much Explains Today. And Today's Heat... Soaking Your Clothes For Washing Feels Like You're Using Boiling Water To Sterilize Your Clothes.

Thurdsay, However, Was A Yin-Yang Day. Morning Sucked Because Of The Stupid UTAR's New System That Makes Students, Que, Fight Or Die. For What? Perfect Timetable Slots. So As Usual, We're All Mixed Up Like A Fruit Cocktail With 26 Different Flavours. Needless To Say That This University's Despair Inducing System Has Left Me In Despair.

But When That Was Done, I Brought Myself To PJ, Taking A Route So Long It Was Almost Twice The Usual Traveling Time. So Yeah. Got There, Checked Out The Cold Storage 'Shopping Complex' Which Was So Tiny I Wondered If It Was Fit Calling It A Complex. Then Met Up With The Birthday Girl, Le-Anne, Had Lunch At Nando's Where I, Trying My Best To Crap, Could Not Fill My Brain With Enough Nonsense To Share. Sorry About That. Maybe I Ought To Go Take Crapping Classes Or Something. And Then We Went To Catch Maggie's MV Screening, Where We Saw All The Future Broadcasting Crews, The Good, The Bad And The Ugly Alike. It Was Only After That Did We Actually Celebrate A Little Bit More Properly, With A Tiny Cake.

Then It Was To Abby's Celebration, That Marked The Day That I Met The Other Half Of Everyone Of 19 That Was In A Relationship. All That Was Left Was Vincent, Who's probably Married To Himself, And I, Who Is Married To A Person Locked Away In The Deepest, Darkest Depths Of My Very Own Unconscious Mind. And Recently Learned That Someone Is Married To WOMEN, Instead Of A Woman. *ERKH EHERM*

And Went For Storm Warriors a.k.a. Storm Riders II. Was A Little Disappointed By The Story, But Then Again The Movie Was Intended To Show Off Hong Kong's CG Capabilities To The World, So That Was All That We Got.

Found Myself Once Again Addicted To Megurine Luka. Why? No Idea. But At Least This Time My Craving For Her Can Be More Easily Satisfied. Her Voice And The Beauty That She Was Created With. Works As A Good Enough Eye Candy For Me.

Adieu To Y'all. Exams In 3 Days Time, So See Y'all Then. Or After 10 Days.

The Cult Of FaceBook!?

This Post Will Very Much Be Dedicated To The People That Have Helped Me Decide On Whether Or Not To Oblige To The Family Obligation, The People That I Personally Know And Those That I Don't Alike. Once Again, Many Thanks From Ian. And I'd Especially Want To Know The One Who Voted That I Stand By My 'Principle', The Only One To Have Voted So.

And After Yesterday I Can Probably Say Something About Myself: Wireless Routers Hate Me. And How I Came About This Crappy Conclusion? Yesterday I Went To CK's Place To Help With The Installation Of His New Wireless Router. And After 3 Bloody Agonizing Hours Of Messing Around With The Settings, I Gave Up Because I Couldn't See Where I Went Wrong But The Router Still Wouldn't Work Properly. And Only Later That Evening Did CK Send Me An MSN Message Saying That The Router Works Completely Fine Now, And That All He Did Was Restart It Several Times, Which I Also Did Uncountable Times At His Place. The Same For Our Kampar Home When We First Got Our Router. Only The Next Day After I Spent The Whole Day Configuring It That It Worked, And What Did I Miss? Restarting, Or So I Was Told By An Acquaintance Who Stopped By Our Place, Which I've Not Forget To Do.

Also, Yesterday I Realized That If Brands Can Make A Person, 3 Things That Will Complete IMD!!! For Now Are:

Razer+Sony Ericsson (Especially Walkman)+ Puma Shoes=IMD!!!

Yeah, Puma Seems To Be The Only Brand That Manufactures Shoes That Matches My Taste. Nike, Adidas, Wild Channel etc. You Name It. All Of Them Have Yet To Make Shoes That Attract My Attention, Let Alone Convince Me To Buy Them. And Boy Do Puma Shoes Last. I Have A Pair That I've Worn Close To Everyday For Almost 2 Years And Now They Look Like They Can Last Another. Though I Realize Even Among Puma Shoes Not Many Could Really Catch My Eyes.

And Sony Ericsson. Anyone Who Knows Me Would Also Know That Ever Since My First Nokia, Which Was Also My Very First Phone, Screwed Up In Less Than 2 Months Of Usage Will Know How Much I Love Sony Ericsson. And Ever Since I Used The First Of It's Walkman Series, It Like No Turning Back For Me. The Dudes From My Class, PY T2 2009 Would Know, Especially After That Presentation Of The Idou, Or Now Know As The Satio. I Find It Amazing Myself, That I While Keep Myself Relatively Up To Date With The Sony Ericsson, I'm Totally Lost When Others Talk About Other Brands. I Could Remember When People Asked Me Opinions Of The N Series And All I Could Say Was The N95 Pwned, Because That Was The Only Phone Of The N Series That I Actually Know Of Back Then.

And Finally We Have Razer. My First Razer Was The Diamondback, And Boy, Did It Make A Grand Difference In My Gaming Life. Bought It During The PC Fair 5 Years Back And It Came With The Everglide Titan. And Now They Will Not Be Replaced, But They Will Be Accompanied By 2 New Additions Into IMD!!!'s Razer Family.As You Can See, The 5-Year-Old Diamondback On Top, The DeathAdder Below, Both On The Sphex.

A Little Advertising For Razer Here.

All Of Razer's Mice Are Named After Deadly Snakes. No Doubt Some Are Fictional Like The Naga And The Orochi, But Deadly Snakes They Are Nevertheless.

All Of Razer's Gaming Surfaces (Or Mouse Pads) Are Named After Insects, With The Exception Of The eXactMat. Most Of Them Are Beetles But We Have The Mantis And The Sphex, Which Is A Species Of Wasp.

All Of Razer's Keyboards Are Named After Spiders. Wolf Spiders To Be Exact, With The Exception Of The Tarantula (Which Is A Tarantula, Duh...).

All Of Razer's Audio Are Named After Fish.

And For All Gamers Out There, If You Ever Need Guidance From Razer Themselves, Here's A Razer's Guide For The n00b, For Gamers, By Gamers.

And So I'm Fanatically A Cult Of Razer Member. When Will This Extend, It'll Probably Be Best To Just Let It Come When It Does.

And So, Adieu To Y'all.

The Dull Excitement

Quite A Load Of Stuff Happened Today, And Also Interesting That Today Happens To Be One Of Those Few Days That I'm Willing To Stay Up To Yap And Crap About What Happened. Though Not Totally Exciting, Today Wasn't Totally Dull Either. And Yeah, Most Are Significant In Some Way Or Another.

Morning Was Bad. Slept Late And Woke Up Early Against My Own Will. And For Breakfast All I Had Was Some Cheap Tasting Durians. Yes, Cheap Tasting. No Idea If They Were Indeed Cheap Or Otherwise, Just The Taste Was Disappointing. Headed Out For KLCC After Somehow Recalling That Today Was The Second Day Of The PC Fair.

The Journey There Was... Ugh... Wanted To Fall Asleep In The Bus But Instead Got A Headache. Oh Well... But For The Many Months That I've Not Been To KLCC, The Place Is As Busy As Ever. Got There Close To 1 And The First Place I Got To Was The Cinemas To Check On The Time For 'Ninja Assassin'. The Show Was At 2.45, But The Queue Told Me That i Should Just Forget It. Damn. Queue In KLCC. Longer Than Trains And Never Ending. Same Goes For McD. So Yeah, Straight To The PC Fair And Looked For My 1 TB Hard Disk.

Saw Ah Xiang There, Working. So We Talked A Little And I Accompanied Him To Go Buy His Headphones Before We Went Our Separate Ways. And Remember The Cheap Tasting Durians From The Morning? The Cheap Smell Was Damn Useful For Clearing A Path Whenever I Was Sick Of Flesh Roadblocks And Needed To Burp At The Same Time.

Got Myself A Tiny Razer Pouch Which Came With A Lanyard, And Saw Razer's Sick Selection Of New Mice. DotA Players Who Are Sick Of Warkeys Not Working On GG Can Just Get Yourself A Razer Naga. Instead Of Additional 4 Buttons, It Has An Entire Numpad Of 12 Keys On The Left. Too Many Skills? With The Razer Naga, You'll Also Score Too Many Kills.

From There It's Traveling To Cheras Leisure Mall Where I Took My Parents To Their First Cinema Movie In 24 Years. The Movie? Ninja Assassin. And The Movie Simply PWNS!!! And Sampled The Newly Opened Sakae Sushi, That Has Better Wasabi Than Sushi King, Meaning It's Also A little Too Much For Me To Handle. And The Tea, Damn Awesome Stuff. Intead Of Powdered Green Tea, You Get Roasted Rice Tea In Teabags! Which Was Like, AWESOME! Although The Price Was At A Whole Different Level Compared To Sushi King, Fortunately So Was The Taste.

And For The Whole Day I Was Thinking Of How Perfectly My New Pair Of Jeans And Shoes Matched. But Near The End Of The Day, I Got Sprayed With Ice Water, To Know That Father's Choices Of Words Still Pierces Through Feelings Better Than The Best Anti Bunker Missile Of The US.

And I Have Pictures, But Will Probably Post Them Later If Ever As My Eyes Are Starting To Weigh A Ton.

And So, Adieu To Y'all.

As Time Flashes By...

It's Already The Study Leave, And It Amazes Me How Time Flies All Of A Sudden, When I Was Previously Wondering When Was This Bloody Semester Gonna End.

Of The Predicted-To-Be-Boring Semester, The Final Week Was Surprisingly The Turning Point Of It All, Somehow Or Rather, For A Limited Number Of Reasons.

To Sum Up The Whole Week, Well, Firstly, Maggie Came To Kampar To Stay With Her 'Sons' (Us) During Her Tiring 'Business Trip'. For The 4 Days It Was All About Directing Her Assignment MV For Her And Her Team, And Judging From The Limited Amount Of Time She Could Actually Spend At Home, It Was Strictly A Business Trip With Just Enough Time To Catch A Breather Before Being Juiced Again. Reminds Me Of How We Were Juiced When We Were Preparing For Our Foundation Graduation Dinner, Though That Didn't Really Feel As Bad In Comparison All Of A Sudden.

So Yeah, In That Limited Time I Got Myself Some Rather Frightening News Regarding Japanese Language Classes: Presentation In Japanese. Still, Glad I Was Informed Early, And So I'd Be Able To Prepare For That. And Thanks For Sharing The Experience.

Had A Share Of What It Felt To Be Filmed As A Small Timer. And Was Shocked That Very Night, By An Extremely Unexpected Complement. Though Much Appreciated, I Still Find It Amusing More Than Anything.

Presentations All Down In The Week Itself. Or Should I Say 'Weak', For I Felt Tired And Never Got Myself Enough Sleep, And Forgetting To Turn Off The Alarm On A Day Where Classes Were Canceled. And Was Complimented For My, Uh... 'Grooming', Shall We Call? And They Say Money Can't Buy Happiness. It Certainly Bought Me Some, For Those Few Seconds At Least. And Even If It Can't Really Buy Happiness, It'll Buy You Pride That'll Last A Whole Day.

So Yeah, Until The Exams Are Closer Around The Corner, Adieu To Y'all.

P.S.: If All Goes Well, I'd Be Expecting A Flood Of Votes Soon. ';..;'

Pok Meng Sek

That's Exactly What We've Been Since The Fridge Came Into The Life (Or Lives) Of The 53 Guys.

Thanks To It, We Now Spend RM50 Extra Whenever We 'Resupply' At Tesco, And Whenever The Fridge Is Not Empty, We Literally Put Our Lives On The Line To Empty It. Interesting Quotes:

Diet? That Can Wait - FPM
Health Problems? Cross The Bridge When You Reach It - IMD

Of Course, Those Were Jokes, And We're Not Really Idiotic Enough To Be Eagerly Sick. But One Thing Is True: We Really Pok Meng Sek (Cantonese For Putting One's Life On The Line In The Name Of Eating)

And Someone Is Happy With The Way Some People Are Right Now, And I Take Direct Reference To What Was Mentioned In The Previous Post. Someone Is So Happy, That Someone Bothered To Cry Tears Of Sorrow To Show The Happiness. Oh Well, Morons Remain Morons, And To Enlighten Them Is To Cause Them Suffering Beyond What They Can Endure. So To Ensure That They Live Long Lives (And Shorten That Of Those Around Such A Moron), 3 Cheers To 'Ignorance Is Bliss'. Practicing Buddhists Out There, Please Tell Me Which Invites More Bad Karma: To Keep Knowledge From Others Or To Bring Suffering To Others?

That Aside, PEOPLE WHO READ, PLEASE CAST A SIMPLE VOTE ON THE RIGHT!!! I ASSURE YOU THAT IT IS MORE BENEFICIAL THAN SENDING CHAIN MAIL/SMS-ES!!!

Phew... Oh, Well... Adieu To Y'all.

Taken For Granted

That Is Us, The People Around A Particular Bitch That Has Been Playing A Child's Game, Seeking The Attention And Concern Of Others When She Barely Deserved It. A Living Contradiction. Hell, If I Were To Make A Yin And Yang Out Of The People I Know, She's Pair Perfectly With My Father, For One Both Seek Attention They Don't Deserve, Both Are Irrational, And Both Are Idiots. And They Are Just Like Yin And Yang Because One's A Bitch While The Other Is A Prick, One's Young And The Other Old, And Most Importantly, One Gains Depression From Praise While The Other Gains Pride From Being Hated.

You Say You Hate The Feeling Of Being Alone When You Are The One That Tossed Those Around You Away.

You Hated The Time You Cried Alone When You Were The One Who Refused To Join Our Laughter.

And You Asked Yourself A Damn Good Question: Why The FUCK Are You Even Here When You Hated The Moment You Returned!?

You Take Us For Strangers When We Are Your Friends!

You Take Us For Aliens When We Are Your Family!

And Yet You Still Dare To Ask: Where Is Your Family And Beloved Friends!? MAYBE YOU WANT TO CHECK THE TRASH CAN BEFORE YOU ASK THIS KIND OF QUESTION!!!

You Think You're The Only One That Feels Alone!?

You Think You're The Only One That Doesn't Wish To Stay Here!?

Well Then, Bitch, If You Think There's A Place That Belongs To You, Then Sorry To Burst Your Bubble, But YOU EXPECT TO HAVE A PLACE THAT BELONGS TO YOU WHEN YOU LEFT THE PLACE WHERE YOU BELONG!!!???

Fine. Go Back And Rot In Memories Of The Past; The Very Memories That Gives Us Reasons To Feel Grateful For The Lives We Live.

It's Because We're Alone That We Have Friends; So That We Do Not Bear The Pain Alone!

It's Because Of No Longer Feeling Alone That We Can Tolerate Being In A Place We Need Not Be!

You Have The Least Right To Complain About Loneliness When You Chose To Isolate Yourself. You Bring All The Drama Upon You And Drag Us All Down With You Into Your Sea Of Sorrow. And Now, Your Family Are More Distant To You Than Mere Acquaintances. And So For The Sake Of All That Care For You, I Hope You Realize This And Stop Acting Like A Child Or Just Go And Die A Swift And Painless Death. Stop Worrying Others With Your Insignificant Self, Unless You Require A Coup de Grâce, In Which I'd Gladly Deliver. Just So That You Know, Your Behavoiur Reminds Me Of My 4 Year Old Self.

Perhaps You Have Yet To Understand The True Value Of Friendship. And I Hope For Your Sake You Never Do, For The Price You Have To Pay May Break Your Very Existence.

And You're Lucky That I Got To Know Of These Details Later Instead Of Earlier, For You'd Not Have Lived Here Still Otherwise.

Adieu To Y'all. Hope The Idiot Doesn't Do Anything More Foolish That What Has Already Been Done.

Break Into Pieces

Its Again, Closer To The Break, People. And The Past Week Of Inactivity Would Explain The Absence Of Updates.

And So This Post Is To Post A Question To Y'all Out There: Should I Get Myself A Facebook Account?

Normally The Answer Would Be 'No' Without Hesitation, But Recently I've Been Informed That Si Panjang Has Made A No19 Group There For Our Family, In Which I'm The Only One Left Yet To Join.

So Yeah, I'm In A Dilemma; To Stand Strong By My, Uh... Principle, Shall We Call, Of Being Anti-Facebook, Or To Oblige To This Unfulfilled Family Thing, Which I'm Keen To Play My Part... And I Need Y'all To Help Me Decide. I've Placed The Polls On The Right.

So Until The Decision's Been Made, Adieu To Y'all.

17th November 2009

Has Passed Like The Other 17 Years. Or Not, Because At Least There Was Still A Celebration, Albeit A Tiny One. Thanks Y'all From Fan's Tutorial Group Who Where Here To Celebrate For Me, Eventhough We Barely Knew Each Other For 5 Months. And Thanks For The Nike Bag, People Of No.53 And Maybe Even Some Of Those From Fan's Gang. That's My 1st Ever Nike Product In My Life LOLZXD

The Line Here Has Been As Horrible As Ever. Online Gaming Was Possible As The Sun Freezing As Soon As I Snap My Fingers. TM Says 1Gbps Line In 4 Hot Spots By The End Of 2010, So When The FUCK Will It Reach Kampar!? And By 2012, Will The Entire KL/Selangor Be Covered!? Hell, TM Is Planning On Something That Should've Been Done Ages Ago. They're So Reliable When It Comes To Doing A Poor Job, And Yet They Have The Guts To Directly Mock P1 WiMax With Their "Why Trust Beginners?" Advertisement In The Papers. Indeed, Big Mouth, No Brains; Not Walking The Talk.

So Yeah, Exams Real Soon, Assignments Handed In, Waiting To Be Presented. This Is Gonna Be One Hell Of A Semester.

Adieu To Y'all. Until TM Walks The Talk, Or Until I Get Impatient And Meet Y'all In Person, Whichever First.

Perfectly Flawed

That's Me People. I Just Realized How Flawed I Actually Am In The Field Where I Thought I Was Perfect In. Not Only Did I Lose The Sponsorships, I Lost By A Very Very Great Margin.

Confidence Came Crumbling Down Much Like The USA World Trade Center Twin Towers. But Then At Least There's Something To Work On; In This Field That Very Much Meant One Of The Few Things That Is Worth Being Proud Of. No Point Staying Stuck Without Having Chances Of Improvement, Right?

I Lost Count Of Which Week This Is, Though I Vaguely Remember It Being The 5th. Means Finals In 3 Weeks From Today. Or 4? Whatever It Is, It Also Means That Home Is That Much Closer.

So Yeah, Adieu To Y'all.

Ethereal Tear

Though I'd Be Tossed Like Garbage, It Would Seem That The One That Departs Willingly Will Be Treated Like Treasure Until Then.

I Understand Not Anymore What Goes On Around Me. These 2 Or 3 Uneventful Months Have Turned Me Into An Idiot. The Surrounding Dullness Has, In Turn, Dulled My Senses With It. Every Word And Action Has Deeper Ulterior Motives And Meanings Behind Them That I Can't Seem To Comprehend Anymore. My Intelligence Waning, My Strength Sapped, My Agility Crippled. A Living Hell, A Nightmare Of Reality.

Perhaps I Should Just Drink Myself To Stupor Like What Every Other Fool Does; I Don't Seem To Be Any Different, Let Alone Superior, To Them Anymore, So Any Harm In Stooping As Low As The Bunch That I've Become So Similar To? I'll Just Let Whatever Remains Of My Conscience Decide On That, While I Let Fate And Destiny Decide My Course In Life Like Leaves In The Wind.

And The Law Of Attraction Is A Fraud. I Just Remembered This Illusion That I've Lived All My Life Since I Was 11 Years Old; Felt Its Warmth, Enjoyed Its Embrace, Lived As If It Were Real, But Will It Ever BE Real? That's The Question That The Law Fails And Will Never Succeed In Answering. But I Shall Continue To Live In This Illusion, And To Keep Transcending This Greater Illusion That Mere Mortals Call Reality, For Only That Is Keeping The Inner Demon From Unleashing True Armageddon.

And With That, Adieu To Y'all. You'll Know When This Soiled Treasure Is Discarded.

Nether Vengeance

Today Was, In Short, A Calamity. What Started As A Rather Cheerful One Ended In Heat, Close to A Family Feud. And Initially I Was Supposed to Be The Star Of Sorrow For This Post. Initially. And I'd Say That It Is Not Fortunate That It Turned To Be The Other Way Around.

At First, I Felt Betrayed. My Place Was Taken By Another. What Was Rightfully Mine Is Now The Privilege Of An Outsider. Benefits That Were Exclusively Mine Were Robbed By Another. Though I Was Far From Speechless, I Still Have It In My Mind That Voicing Them Out Would Lead To Further Misunderstanding, And With That Another Heartbreak Was Kept, Or Rather, Remained, Silent.

Although Predicted, I Never Expected It To Have Come So Soon... But Perhaps If I Have Truly Forseen This Event Then I Should Have Braced Myself For It, Regardless of How Soon It Came. Indeed, I Felt Like A Soiled Cloth Tossed Away, Replaced By A New One.

But All That Changed. And What Would've I Told Another I Realized I Should've Told Myself Too:

Minna mo Shounen da.
Ore wa Wakaru, Kimi no Kimochi, Demo Genjitsu wa Kore:
Riyuu wa So Kantan ja Nai yo。

One Of The Many Fears Of Counselors Not Written In Text Books, Or That I Missed: Saying The Worng Things At The Wrong Time. And That, I'm Given First Hand Experience...

And Sorry Guys. I Lied About 2012 Being Merely So-So. But You Should Just Watch It For Yourselves To Know How It Actually Was, For I Fear Our Perceptions Differ Again.

And I Have 5 Hours to Sleep Before I Go For A Battle For Sponsorships, And I Intend To Give My All, Deprived Of Sleep Or Otherwise.

Adieu To Y'all. And Infinite Apologies.

Weak Week

This Week Was, In Short, NOT COOL.

Wednesday Was A Real Killer. Midterm And Right After That We Had To Meet For A Whole Day To Finish Up An Assignment That's Due The Next Day. Lost Loads Of Sleep There. And Today Something Unpleasant Was Abruptly Announced That Has Left Most of Us On The Edge. Won't Wanna Elaborate Yet, Because People Should Not Worry About This Yet, And When They Should, The Problem Would've Been Resolved, Peacefully Or Otherwise, Which Ends Their Reason To Worry. I Can't Say I'm Not Negatively Affected As Well, But Guess I'd Look At The Brighter Side Of Things: One Less Liability To Look After.

All I Can Say Is: See The World For What It Is, Feel The Pain Of Reality For Yourself, And Be Grateful For For The Providence That You Chose To Discard, For You Won't Find Another As Good, And For Your Sake I Hope That What You Have Abandoned Is Not Lost To You Should You Realize You Need It Again.

Net Life Has Definitely Taken Its Toll On People, And I'm Feeling Kinda Down That I'm Glad I'm Not Alone. Oh Well, Hope Things Change Soon.

Adieu To Y'all While I Continue Hogging Fan's PC -.-'

Law Of Attraction?

A Very Far-Fetched Theory (I Still Cannot Accept It As A Law, As It Is Defiable) In The Book/DVD 'The Secret'. For Those Who Haven't Already Know What's This About, It Basically Means That Just By Thinking And Feeling Continuously What You Want Without It Being A Chore And It'll Come True Some Time Sooner Or Later. Debatable IMO, But I'd Say This Topic Is Abstract As The Supernatural, So It's Wiser Not To Bother.

Why The Heck Am I Talking About This Of All Things? Since Today Is A Day Before The Midterms Mr Yusoff, Our Psychotherapy Lecturer, Decided That We Should Watch This Instead Of Letting Students Pester Him With Tip-Begging.

And I Found Myself Playing 'Borderlands' Again. Pitiful Me.

Thanks To Assignments And Midterms, Nothing Really Gets The Chance To Happen. It's The Same Rote Routine Of Doing Stuff For Those Assignments And Presentations And Studying For Midterms And Exams. And All That Cramped Into 7 Weeks For The Short Semester. And Is It Just Me Or Does Bachelors Degree Life Take The Essence Of Life Away? And I Mean It Literally, Because The More I Progress With This 3 Year Course The More I Feel That It's Getting More And More Repetitive. And Interesting Stuff That Should Happen In Between Are Getting Less And Less. Yeah, Yeah, People Are Gonna Start Throwing At Me The "It's Just 2 Semesters, Who Are You To Judge" Shit But That's How It Feels Like, 2 Sems Or Otherwise.

And I Continue To Have My Mind Occupied With Gundams. And As I Do So, So Do More Braincells Fly Away Just As Money Would If I Materialize What I Visualize.

With That, Adieu To Y'all As We All Continue Listening To The 3 Hearts. XD

P.S.: Thanks To Revision, I Think I May Have A Form Of Superiority Complex...

Darkness Also Illimunates

A Cool Phrase Taken From Saw The Game. Though The Game Itself Would Be Hard To Understand Without Watching At Least The First 3 Movies, PLaying The Game Itself Is Like Watching Another Movie Of The Series; Gory Enough To Make You Sick.

Went To Ipoh To Watch 'Ninja' Last Saturday. Though The Title Was One That Really Got Me Into It And All The Cool Fighting Action, The Story Just Simply Sucked. Sorry Guys For Dragging Y'all Along With Me For That Crappy Movie. Hope 2012 Would Be Better, Which Comes This Thursday.

Got Hooked On To A Game Called 'Borderlands', An FPS RPG With A Level System, Recently, And Now I Find It Real Hard To Resist The Temptation Of Playing It.

There Were Loads Of Other Things I Wanted To Say, But My Mind Is Copletely Dominated By Gundam Kits Now, So I'll Just Leave It Here.

Adieu To Y'all.

The Thing About Life

One Thing I Really Hate About Campus Life When You Have To Live Far Away From Home Is That Mom Is Far Away As Well, And I Can't Rant To Her About Stuff As Freely As I Would At Home. But Then Again, When I'm At Home, Things Are Relatively More Tolerable Due To Habituation That There's No Need To Rant. Ah... Life... Either It Gives You Shit Without The Toilet, Or The Toilet Without The Shit.

Which Reminds Me Of A Saying Regarding Condoms, Which Goes Like This "...(Fill With Whatever) Is Like A Condom; Better To Have But Not Need It Than To Need But Not Have It." Applies To Home As Well. Best To Have Mom Close By And Not Needing To Rant That Needing To Rant But Having Mom So Far Away T.T

Shit Is Being Stirred By The Shit Stirrer (Duh) And The Shit Stirrer Is Really Getting On My Nerves. Oblivious To This Fact Of Course, As Always, As The Person Carries On Stirring Shit And Throwing Them At The Ceiling Fan, Literally The Saying When The Shit Hits The Fan.

Sorry To Y'all For All The Shit In Today's Post. I'm Damn Bored And The Arse Of A Shit Stirrer Is Just Making My Bad Mood Worse.

And Speakin Of The Shit Stirrer This Time, My Lecturer Just Said That It Is Normal For Women To Be More Prone To Narcissism. So Naturally Asylums Would Have More Severe Female Narcissist Than There Would Be Men. In Fact There's One Within A 30metre Radius Of My Current Position That Has A Rightful Place In One. And This Person Makes Me Wonder If Narcissism And Defaming Tendencies Come Hand In Hand, Because The Person Can't Help But Indulge In Excessive Self Boasting And Admiration to Extents Of A Moth Wanting to Be A Firefly, And Condemning All Other Fireflies For Being Naturally Better, Albeit In A Very Sarcastic Way.

So To All The Girls And Women I Know Who Have Normal Levels Of Self Esteem Instead Of Being Overly Narcissist, You Have My Admiration, Respect And Love. For Vanity Should Come With Sensibility, And It Aggravates Me To See Turkeys Keep Calling Themselves Phoenixes.

Adieu To Y'all. Hopefully You've Enjoyed The 3 Hearts That Are Still Being Played.

絶望社会 / Zetsubou Shakai / Society Of Despair

Quote From Mom: I Guess Kampar's Pretty Famous Now, With All The Deaths...

(Shouldn't That Be Infamy Rather Than Fame!?)

Indeed, Parents (And God Parents) All Over Are Calling To Make Sure Their Young Ones Are Safe And To Further 'Advise' Them To Not To Go For Any Picnicking So Close To The Waters. And To Those Who Lost Their Lives, I Can Only Hope That For Your Sake You Don't Have A Next Life To Be Reincarnated In.

Much Has Transpired Since The Last Post, And The Lazy Me Failed To Find The Motivating Inspiration To Post Anything Until Now. But To Sum Them Up...

1. I Have A Tutor That Claims To Be A Psychic That Talks To Jesus(Supposedly Anyone Can Do That) And Gets A Response( Supposedly That's The Hard Part). Though I Favour Some Of Her Views Regarding Religion, There Are A Considerable Number Of Discrepancies In Her Stories. And The Fact That She Boasts To No End (Literally In Chinese I'd Say "Blow Cow Blow Water") Really Gets Me On Edge At Times.
2. There's A Subject In Which The Lecturer And Tutor Really Seem Like They're Battling For Power And Authority. The Lecturer Says "Consult Only Me" And The Tutor Brags On And On About What She Knows And Has Accomplished In The Field. Sigh... To See Such Things Among Working Adults... And In The Education Field...
3. Father's Choices Of Blunt Words Hasn't Changed. And It Seems That He's The Type That Doesn't Like People Who's Eaten More Salt Than Him, And Desperately Tries To Convince People That Whatever He Enjoys Is Also Enjoyable To Others, Even When They Have Grown Tired Of It. I Wonder How He'd Accept The Fact That His Son Has Secretly Eaten More Salt Than Him...? Heh, He'd Probably Not Ever Know Of It. The Moment He Does Will Be The Moment When Either He Or I Die A Premature Death. Maybe Even Both. Heh.

Oh Well, What Can I Say Besides That This World Has Left Me In Despair?

Just To Rant, But It's Been 10 Months Since I Last Touched A PS3. WHEN WILL I HAVE ONE OF MY OWN!?

Adieu To Y'all. Hope To Do Something With This Motivation While It Lasts.

P.S.: Today's The Second Anniversary Of Godma's Passing.

The 3 Hearts (Updated)

Well, As Promised, Here They Are, My 3 Favourite Love Songs. Of Course Info On Them Is Not Exactly Complete, But I Have At Least The Title, The Artist And The Composer, Put There In Order. Any Additional Info Will Be In Brackets:

1. Energy
   Inoue Marina
   cAnON


2. Trust You
   Yuna Ito
   MARKIE (Lyrics As Well)
   Jin Nakamura (Instrumental Arrangement)


3. Yuki no Hana
   Mika Nakashima
   Ryouki Matsumoto
   Takashi Matsumoto (Acoustic Version)
   Satomi (Lyrics)

With The Growing Number Of Artists Nowadays, It's Amazing For Them To Have Their Vocal Qualities Still Stand Out Amongst The Crowd. And Impressive Work IMO On The Composer/Arrangement/Lyricist's Part For Making The Songs Unique. And I Must Say, The Japanese Have A Very Unique Style In Writing/Expressing Their Love Song Lyrics.

The Songs Themselves I've Set Them To Play In Order Automatically Until I'm Bored Of Having Them Played Here. For The Lyrics, Well, There's Always Good Ol' Reliable Uncle Google. Or If Your System Is Running On Windows Vista, You Can Download The 'Now Playing' Plug-In For Your Side Bar. And You-Tube Can Actually be A Surprisingly Reliable Source For Lyrics, IF You're Willing To Wait For The Whole Song To Load.

With That, Adieu To Y'all.

P.S.: This Post Has Been Updated

名前か？

This Has Been Something That Came In And Out Of My Memory Ever Since I Started Watching Gundam 00, And Now That It Is Still In, I’d Better Say It Out Before I Forget Again; My Name In Japanese Is Pronounced As イアン, And NotイエンNor 飛燕 (ひえん/ヒエン) As I Initially Thought, But What The Hell. 飛燕 Sounds So Much Cooler And イアン Sounds Awkwardly Funny, So I’ll Stick With 飛燕.

And Another Thing I Noticed About Someone Close By Today; Vingent Learns When Individual Performance Is Essence. Realized This When Playing Street Fighter IV Against Him Earlier. He’s Another That’s Got Potential In Being A Gamer For Single Player Games.

Speaking Of Games, It Really Bothers Me That When People Say “Nothing Is Free” It Is So Literal In The Meaning. I Remember Going To The Arcades In Berjaya Times Square On The Last Friday Of The Semester Break And Seeing That The Pros Are People Who Have Paid For More Than The Price Of A PS3 To Get To Where They Are. Though The Arcades There Are Relatively Cheap (2 Tokens For RM1), The Number Of Games They Play And Thus The Number Of Money Spent On Them Is Beyond What I’m Willing To Spend, And On Arcades Of All Things. This Guy I Saw Had A Tekken6 Character Record Card (No Idea How Much That Costs), Recorded More Than 200 Wins Against Players And 100+ Losses, Totaling Close To 400 Player Matches. I Can’t Imagine How Many Matches Against Computer Opponents He’s Fought, But Lets Just Count As He Pays For Every Games Against Players And Plays Against AIs For Free, It’ll Still Total Up To About RM600, Because Every Game Costs 3 Tokens (RM1.5) And 2 Tokens For Retries If A Player Loses. And Since Usually People Fight Against AIs More Frequently Than Players, The Amount He’s Spent Would Surely Amount To More Than a Thousand Ringgit. And What’s More, His Girlfriend Sits By His Side When He Plays!!! I Know This Sounds Unrelated But Think About It; Shouldn’t He Spend More On Her Instead? Or Go Somewhere Else With Her Instead Of Having Her Sit With You In The Arcades? Speaking Of Which, There Was Also A Pro Gal Player There That Day, And Judging By The Number Of Tokens She Used I’m Sure She Spent About RM10 Just On Tekken6 That Day Itself.

And I’ve Decided To Just Introduce GaMangAnime Characters Instead Of Ranking Them As My Favourite Or Whatever, Because There’re So Many Characters To Talk About. And That, Together With My Fav Songs, Will Come Next Post.

With That, Adieu To Y’all.

P.S.: My Arms, Legs And Abdomen Are Still Aching. It’s a Torture to Use Those ‘Shake Before Use’ Products. Even Lying Down When I Need To Sleep it Agonizing.

10-Mile Drag-Race

This Post Is Gonna Be A Squeezed One, Compressing Whatever That Should Be Said Last Week Until Today.

First Off... Lectures Are Dead Boring. Fortunately One Of Them Has An Acceptable Sense Of Humour. And For The 1st Week We Had No Tutorials Because One Was On MC And The Other Turned Out To Be The Same Person. I Just Hope She Isn't Gonna Be Replacing 6 Friggin Hours Of Tutorials Or I Think I'd Go To The Extent Of Making Soup Out Of Her Freshly Peeled Skin. And Amazingly That Sums Up A Very VEry VERy VERY Boring 1st Week. Damn I'm Lazy...

And 2 And A Half Months Of No Strenuous Physical Activity Has Made Me Very Weak. Yesterday's Session Of Taekwondo Training Left Me With A Nausea For 1/2 An Hour. Fan Says It Was Because I Ate Too Early Or Too Little. Not Sure If That Meant That My Stamina Would Be As Good As Before If I Ate A Little Later Before Training. And Today Muscles All Over The Body Are Aching. I Probably Overstretched Them, But Either Way It Just Means That They've Solidified After No Stretching For So Long. Even Cycling To Campus Was Painful Today.

And I Am Probably Gonna Be Watching The 2 Seasons Of さよなら絶望先生 All Over Again. Can't Get Enough Of His 'Philosophies' That Really Shows (Somewhat) The True Nature Of The World, And The People Who Inhabit It.

And With That, Adieu To Y'all. Remind Me That My Next Post Is About My Fav GaMangAnime Characters And Songs. XD

Obstructive Obligations

During The First Few Days Of This Dreaded 2nd Semester I Realized That I Have Less Acquaintances Than Others Have Cliques (Okay, Maybe Not Literally Cliques But Not Really Friends Either). My Anti-Social Self in Action? Don't Think So. Has Been That Way Since Primary School (Or Maybe Even Kindergarten).

Though With The Right Company Social Life Has Been Really Fun And Entertaining And All, With The Wrong Ones One Can Only Wonder How Stupid Can The Jokes They Come Up With Be. Indeed, The Many People That I Talk To For The Past Few Months In Campus (Save A Select Few) Are Mere Acquaintances, And Though I Can Bring Myself To Laugh With Them At Times, I Can't Help But Laugh AT Them Instead At Other Times. And Sometimes When People Literally Stalk Me Even When They Know I Have Few Words To Share, I Just Can't Help But Feel That Their Faces Lack A Fist Mark.

Maybe This Just Means That I Don't Have An Anti-Social Self; My Entire Being Is To A Certain Degree, Anti-Social. Though I'm No ひきこもり, I Just Can't Help But Feel That Company (The Wrong Ones, And Unfortunately The Most Common Ones) Are Plain Irritating. It's An Irritating Obligation, No Doubt.

Why Obligations? Well, As We All Know, UTAR Has A Famous(Or I'd Rather, Infamous)-ly Notorious Reputation For Having Most If Not All Of Their Assignments As GROUP Assignments. Not That I Don't Appreciate It But Some Assignments Should Really Have More Individual Emphasis (Like Last Sem's Oral Communication Skills), And Other Fields Where Language Is Concerned. And So, At Times When We Are Obliged To Bring Obstructions Into The Group (Some Will Know Who What Why When Where I Mean, For They Share The Same Pain) We Get Scarred Emotions When Our Individual Performances Are, Well Literally, Obstructed. And Yet We Are Obliged To Be At Least Acquainted For Other Work Where Language Is Not The Main Problem, In Which Sometimes They Do Better.

Hell, Being In A University Itself Is An Obligation. Why? Society Loves It When They Have An Expensive Price Tag On Their Heads. In This World Where Paper Decides Your Caliber And Quality (Hence The Price Tag) And Of Course Others Will Assume Too Readily That With A More Expensive Price Tag One Performs Better. Like We Are Equal To The Products We Manufacture In The Name Of Making Life Easier.

(4 Frame Expression)

絶望した！達成社会に絶望した！
Zetsuboushita! Tatsei Shakai ni Zetsuboushita!
Despair! This Achievement-Oriented Society Has Left Me In Despair!
(The 4 Frames Of Facial Expressions And The
絶望した！。。。に絶望した！ Template Is A Copyright Of さよなら絶望先生)

Well Maybe Obligations Are Not All Bad I Suppose. With This Obligation I Was Able To Find More Reasons To Prove This Societal Obligation Wrong. And Found People That Are The Rare Few In The World That Are Real Pals.

Well Then, Obligations Aside I Think This Fire Has Been Very Much Doused. And So, With That, Adieu To Y'all.

Boredom Begins

Today Is The Last Day Of The Semester Break. As Mentioned Before, Tomorrow Will Be The Day The Murderous Boredom Begins. Time Really Flies, Doesn't It?

At The Moment I'm Still Wondering How The Heck Am I Gonna Survive The Next Semester.

Much Has Happened Recently, But I Always End Up Too Drained At The End Of The Day To Update. Well, Here's What Happened Since Thursday Night:

Thursday Was Clubbing With The 19 Gang. Fortunate And Unfortunate. Fortune For All 10 Of Us Present. The Other For Another Piss Drunk And Another Tipsy.

Friday Was Going To Sungei Wang To Look For Our Ancient Toy Anly To Be Disappointed And Further Tempted By Gundam Astray Red Frame Perfect Grade. Then Times Square For Arcades, Only To Meet The Pros Of Tekken6 (And Got Pwned Miserably).

Saturday Was Me Dragged Along With Father, His 2nd And 3rd Brother And His Nephew To A Meal Of 8 Fish. Fortunately Bro Brendon Was There As Well Or I'd Be Bored To Death. Then At Night Was Dinner With Mom's Side Of The Family. Wanted To Go For Some Sort Of Celebration For The 9 Emperor Gods But Decided Against It Later.

And Now Here I Am At Kampar. Many Times I Accidentally Say "Back At Kampar" And I Still Wonder Why. Do I Really Have So Many Homes To Go Home To? Heh... Shit. With The Tragedy At Is Going On At Home I May Actually A 5th Place To Call Home, But Lets Just Hope That It Doesn't Come To That.

What Exactly Happened? Well, Lets Just Say That Father's Choices Of Words Got From Hurtful To Heartbreaking. And He's Being More Vengeful Than Ever. And Yes People, That's What I'll Become Sooner Or Later So Please Forgive My Anti-Social Tendencies. All That's Because I Don't Want To Be Hurting Others With My Excessively Sensitive Self, Another Trait Inherited From You-Know-Who. And He Claims To Be A Practitioner Of Buddhism. It's Either Hypocrisy Or Disgracing The Teachings, Which I Never Believed In Anyway.

So Tomorrow's The New Semester. Hope Y'all Enjoy It, Coz I'm Quite Sure I Won't.

And With That, Adieu To Y'all.

P.S.: The iGod Doesn't Hang Anymore After I Used Vulgar Language Against It. Instead It Replies Rather Calmly And Parent-Like, Which Was... Uhg...

Draws To A Close...

The Semester Break Is Ending Soon...

I'm Bored To Death And I Don't Want The Holidays To End. YET.

Okay People, Two Things In My To Do List That I Failed To Complete:

1. Grinding Dragonica Like Mad (Actually Got Bored Of It After Level 26)
2. Hang Out Like No Tomorrow (Realized I Need A Break From Hanging Out, Or Rather, The Traveling, After All)

And Sorry People Who've Known Me Since Secondary School, But I'm Vain Now. Yes, I'm The Living Embodiment Of Something That I Was Against So Strongly In The Past. You Wouldn't Believe The Extent Of It.

Also...

絶望した！ハードディスクの容量不足に絶望した！
（Despair! The Lack Of Hard Disk Space Has Left Me In Despair!）

Thanks To 2 Seasons Of さよなら絶望先生 And So Much More to Download. And I'm Unwilling To Clear All The Completed Downloads Because I Feel Indebted To All The Seeders That Provided Them To The Extent That I Feel Obliged To Be Seeding Myself -.-'

Gathering On Monday Was Cool. I'll Leave The Details To The Others Who Were There. Lazy Me, I Think So Too.

Tuesday, The 4 Of Us Gossiped A Little More Before Catching The Movie "Surrogates" Or Something Like That. Had An Interesting Story, Though A Little Dull Near The Climax. And Saw This:

Inspirational, Hmm... Hmm...

Well, Adieu To Y'all. Somehow Rotting Now Feels Like An Enjoyable Way To Spend The Holidays.

Fear The (Super)Natural

Yesterday's Ghost-Hunting Trip Was Quite A Letdown. I Personally Saw Or Felt Nothing Supernatural, But There Were Others Who Saw White Silhouettes Drifting/Dashing Around, Felt The Temperature Change etc. Either I'm Too Oblivious To Stuff Like This Or My Mental Awareness Is Still Very Low. Elaboration On The Adventure Below. Those Who Fear These Kinds Of Stories Either Brace Yourselves Or Don't Continue.

There Were 9 Of Us, 4 Have Been There Before And 2 Of The 4 Leading Us. Among The Other 5 Was A Photographer.

The First Spot Was Rather Out Of My Expectations; It Was Very Very Near Tian Hou Temple, A Place I Often Go To As A Child. It Was Like An Abandoned Two-Building Bungalow Of Some Sorts, One On The Slopes And Another Above It On Flat Ground. Before We Entered An Indian Lady Living Very Close By (Almost Considered A Next-Door Neighbour) Saw Some Of Us And Told Us To Be Careful If We Were Going In Because There Has Been Snake Sightings Recently. She Was Right. When We Went To The First Building Where It Was Rumoured To Be A Place Where People Reared Spirits, The Very First Thing We Saw Was A Python, And Based On The Markings Probably A Reticulated Python, Its Head At Least The Size of My Fist. That Alone Deterred Us From Exploring Further. The Atmosphere Was Eerie Enough In The Dark, With Posters Writing "Private Property, Trespassers Will Be Prosecuted" Everywhere. So We Went Upwards To The 2nd Building; Dried Swimming Pools, An Abandoned Luxurious Looking House, Lots Of Trees, And Hence Owls, Around. The Story Of The Place Was Supposedly There Was Someone Raped And Killed There Before The Place Was Believed To Be Haunted And Then Abandoned. There Was An Extremely Fresh Looking Rose Near The Pools But I'm Not Sure If It Is A Real One Or A Plastic One. Then Some Saw 2 Shining Things Around, Believed To Be Eyes Of A Cat. We Went Inside, Went Upstairs Until Someone Saw A White Something Drift Past The Balcony. Explored More And Found Nothing, We Went Out Of There After That.

The Second Place Was Supposedly The Eeriest Of The 3 Places, Where Sightings Have Been The Most Often. From What I Heard, There Was A Malay Professor Who Killed His Son And Wife Before Setting His Own Home On Fire And Hanging Himself. So The Spirits Were Believed To Have A Violent Nature Craving Vengeance Or Something. The Place Was Close To The National Zoo And The House Itself Was Strange; Upon Entering The Main Gate We Find Ourselves On A Platform Of Sorts In A Forest Like Place, Although From The Outside Its A Semi-D. The House Itself Was Downstairs, On That Set of Stairs There Have Been Sightings Of A Woman Crawling Her Way Up, Much Like In Ju-On. So We Went In, Finding Most Of The Placed Charred. Supposedly The Kid Would Be Seen Crawling About Inside The House While The Prof Himself Patrols Right Outside The House, By The Main Gate Where The Ones That Have Been There Previously Saw Him Waiting By Their Car. We Continued To Explore Every Spot That We Can, Before Going Back Up To The Balcony Where The 'Leader' Asked Us To Sit In A Circle, Each Watching The Others' Backs While We Tried To 'Communicate' Verbally With Them. Someone Felt Something By The Trees But When We Took A Closer Look, There Wasn't Anything Anymore. We All Left After Some Time There Without Anything Happening.

The Final Place, None Other Than The Highland Towers. Supposedly After One Of The Towers Crumbled To The Ground, The Other Two Towers Were Attempted To be Demolished, But To No Avail. We Went Up A Few Floors Saw Stuff That Supposedly Meant That There Were People Rearing Ghostlings Here As Well, But Nothing More. Someone Saw Some Glittering Stuff Drift Through, But Only For That Instant. Then We Went To An Abandoned Bungalow Nearby, Which Was Occupied By Uncountable Numbers Of Flying Things, Either Bats Or Moths. If They Were Bats I'd Be Happy, Because If They Were Moths Damn They're Huge. Before We Left We Played A Little Game; All Of Us Got In Pairs (Save The Photographer, Who Never Really Needed The 'Leader' As He Just Rushed Towards Whatever He Felt Was Funny) And Closed Ourselves In A Room In That Bungalow. Supposedly That Way We May Feel Something. Well, Supposedly, Coz I Felt Nothing But Heat.

The Conclusion Of That Trip By The 'Leader' Was That Someone's Spiritual Strength Or Something Was Too Great That The Ghosts Did Not Show Themselves. But According To Vincent, The Trip Today Didn't Have The Feel It Had Before Because The 'Leader' Today Lacked The Leadership Quality That The Previous One Did. He Said That The Previous Trip Was Silent, No One Joked Around And Everyone Payed Full Attention To Any Abnormality In The Surroundings, But Not Today.

Oh Well... Though Nothing Supernatural Occurred, My Nerves Was Very Much Wrecked by The Living Instead Of The Dead; First The Snake, Then The Moths. Maybe I'll Get My Chance Some Other Time. To Fellow Supernatural Thrill Seekers, Feel Free To Join This 'Team' Of Explorers.

Until Then, Adieu To Y'all.

Time Travel

That's The 2nd Week Of The Break Gone, And While It Was Spent Meaningfully, I Still Can't Say That 3 Weeks Are Enough. So What The Heck Did I Waste This Week On? The Trip To Johor. Batu Pahat, Abby's Home, To Be Exact.

Though It's Been Mostly Eating For The 3 Days And 2 Nights, Much Has Transpired. Of Course, Most Importantly During This Trip, Happy Belated Birthday To Ashley And Congratulations To Her And Our UncleJaz For Officially Being Together.

Okay, The First Day Was Spent On Some Sightseeing And Photo Frenzy For The Others While Getting Cake Ingredients (Yes, Esther Is There To Bake For Us Again With Abby's Help). The Day Ended Rather Awkwardly When We 'Forced' A Confession During Our Midnight Drink Session Out Of Jaz (And I'm Quite Sure We're Glad it Happened), And When We All Did Some Really Crappy Stuff Before We Slept (I'll Leave The Details To Those That Were There; It's Rather Embarrassing To Mention It).

The Second Day Started With Bowling While I Went Off For Some Really Overpriced Arcades At The Summit Batu Pahat. Got Myself A Belt After Much Looking, And Even Met Zhi Wei There. Then During The Evening We Went To Minyak Beku Where There's A Jetty Of Some Sorts Called, For Reasons Unknown To Me, 'Lovers' Bridge'. Well, Despite The Name, What Fascinated Me Most There Was Seeing Fishermen Do Their Thing Up Close. The Size Of The Eels They Caught Instantly Got My Stomach Growling; Each Weighing Around 4 Kilograms. And Other Really Fresh Seafood That You'd Really Wish You Could Eat It Fresh, There And Then Itself. Unfortunately, No One Took Any Pictures Of Them. The Day Ended With Singing The Birthday Song Of Ashley's And Officially Cutting The Birthday Cake.

The Third Day Was Uneventful, When We Returned To Selangor. But Was Also The Day W902 Returned To Me And The Day ShanGee Treated Us To A Meal As He Said He Would When He Won The RM6k.

So Today I Spent The Whole Day Finishing Gundam 00. The Story Was Better Than What I Heard.

And Also, I'll Be Ghost-Hunting With Vincent Today. Anyone With The Guts The Size Of Jupiter Feel Free To Join Us.

Adieu To Y'all. The next Sem's Gonna Be Murderously Boring.

P.S.: Ever Wanted A Piece Of The So-Called Almighty God? Check Out The Link To An AI Called iGod If I'm Not Mistaken. Link Somewhere On The Right. Not Recommended For Religious People.

Home Sweet Home The 2nd

Here we Are, At No 19, 17/21B Street, Sec. 17, PJ. For? DotA, DotA And More DotA. From The Time We Arrived From Tomorrow (The Food Court Called Tomorrow) For Dinner Around 8 All The Way Till Now, That Us Crazy Bunch Chose To Go To McD Sec. 14 For God Knows What, And I Don't Know Whether Its Me Or Them Being Crazier, Because They Prefer The Cigarette Contaminated Open Air Than The Cold, Clean Air Conditioned Indoors.

Yeah, So Here I Am, Isolated From The Bunch Because Of My Extreme Hatred Towards Cig Smell And Their Extremely Weak Bodily Heat Insulation. Pretty Much Killed The Point Of Comin All The Way Out Here But What The Fuck, Here I Am Already And I'm In No Mood To Walk Home With The Laptop Around, And Especially Not During This Unearthly Hour When Humans Are Scarier Than Ghosts (If They Do Exist). Damn I Miss The Cold, And It's Shocking To Realize That They Miss The Cigs Eventhough They Don't Smoke.

Being Here Really Reminded Me Of The Good Old Times When We'd Sit At A Corner INSIDE With 2 Cups Of COLD Drinks And Talked About Whatever Bullshit That We Had To Talk About. A Regret That This Time, Vincent Isn't Here, And They... Well, I've Repeated Enough.

And Surprising How Early The Usual late Sleepers Sleep Today, Coz Damn I'm Bored.

Adieu To Y'all. And Once Again, FUCK CIGS!!!

Missin' Murni

Of All Things, I Think So Too. But Can't Help It; Found Something There That No One Does Better.

Dinner With Goddad Today Was When I Can Actually Put My Counseling Knowledge Into Action. And Damn I Felt Good About That. Situation's Not Really Getting Better For Him, Knowing That His Younger Daughter Is Gonna Marry In 3 Months Time. Sad Thing That My Course Is At Kampar, Or I'd Be Able To Keep Him Company Even After That. But Hell, That'll Have To Wait For 2 1/2 More Damn Years. Hopefully During This Break I Can Find A Way To Help Him Clean Up His House; Things Weren't The Same Since Godma's Passing, Even Cleanliness...

So Yeah, Dinner With Goddad Made Me Miss "Restoran Murni SS2" All Of A Sudden. Why? Coz for Dinner Today We Went To A Re-renovated Food Court Near Our Place And Damn I'm Surprised How A Small Change In Atmosphere And A Stage For Stone-Age Karaoke Can Attract So Many More Customers. Seeing Many People, I'd Think (Hell, Anyone'd Think) That The Food There Was Better As Well. And The Western Food Stall Caught My Eye.

At A Glance, The Words 'Sirloin Steak' Stood Out Like A Flare In Darkness. Ordered It, Anticipating High-Quality Beef That I Can Never Get At Kampar Coz I Don't Remember Any Restaurants Selling Beef. Wasn't Totally Disappointed; It Tasted Decent At Least, But It very Much Made Me Wanna Go To PJ Again To Eat The Best Black Peppered Sizzling Sirloin Steak I've Ever Eaten.

Speakin Of PJ, We From No.19 17/21B Street May Go Back There For A LAN Session Of DotA That We All Owe Each Other. And An Outing With Ex TB1-ers As Well.

Until Then, Adieu To Y'all.

Home Sweet Home

People, IMD!!! Is Back At Cheras!!!

Though The Line Here Isn't As Perfect As I Expected, It's Still At Least 3 Times Smoother Than At Kampar.

Busy, Busy Weeks Ahead. Time For Holiday Yeah, But So Many Other Issues That I'd Consider As Work To Finish Up Before The Real Fun Begins. Things Currently Dominating My To-Do List:

1. Getting My Phone Serviced
2. Getting My Real Expensive But Effective Cooling Pad
3. Grinding Dragonica Like Mad (Not Really Sure If I Can Accomplish This)
4. Eat Some KL-Exclusive Food
5. Hang Out Like No Tomorrow.

And Don't Mind Me If You're Looking For Me And I'm Not Around. High Probability Of That Happening This Week.

Adieu To Y'all. Line's Not As Good As I Expected And That's Killing The Mood.

The Prelude's Final Chapter

Don't Know Why But It's Getting Very Stressful To Think Of Post Titles Recently.

Anyway...

Today Is The Last Day Of The Exams For Me. And I've Still 7 Chapters To Cover. And In Four Hours. But What Am I Doing? Heh. Let's Just Say That If I Don't Do What I Do Then I'm Not Being Me.

Oh Yeah, Something We Saw Yesterday That Really Got Our Attention:
A Great Hornbill, Which We All Know To Be The Bird That Very Much Represents East Malaysia, In Kampar. Man, The Size Of This Beauty... Credits To Me (The Spotter), Fan (The Photographer) And Vingent (Owner Of The C905 Used To Take The Pic).

For That Brief Moment We Were All Fascinated By It, Maybe Because All We See Here Besides The Usual Pigeons And Turtle Doves Are Cranes From The Lake Near Campus. Then Came Jokes About Them Migrating All The Way From Sarawak For Some Unknown Reason.

The Net Here Is Getting More And More Irritating, It's So Bad That I'm Actually Reading Up Facts Of My Favourite Games From Wikipedia While Listening To Realtek Enhanced Music When I Can Be Playing RO, MapleStory, Cabal Or Even Dragonica. Can't Wait To Go Home.

And I'm Talking About All These 3 1/2 Hours Away From My Last Paper. Grats To Myself For Remaining Myself.

And Saw Something That Made Me Laugh My Breakfast Out (Well, Was Really Close To) While Blog-Hopping:

If you don't noe me, dun read my blog ok? :D THX

Shouldn't You Make Your Blog Open To 'Inviteds' Only Then o.O? ROFLMBO Anyway...

Adieu To Y'all. Until After 4 PM Then...

P.S.: While The Trend Has Suddenly Shifted From Facebook To Viwawa, Fan Has Decided To Spend His 3 Weeks Worth Of Semester Break On Crayon Sin Chan. Something To With The Manga-ka's Recent Death...

To Dream Of The Past And To Chase After The Future

Monotonous Study Week Life Has Never Been This Boring. Maybe Because There Are Less People Here. It's Never Been This Way Back At No.19 (Damn I Hate To Love Reminiscing About The "Good Ol' Days")

Back Then, Every Day, Or At Least Every Evening Had Something Going On. And Maybe It's Also Because It Was Foundation. Most Mornings And Afternoons Were Wasted Siesta-ing Due to The Weather And The Fact That No One Slept Well During The Mosquito-Dominated Nights. The Evenings Was When Life Was, Well, Life, For A Lack Of Better Words.

Having So Many Subjects In Common, Study Leave Evenings (Or Evenings Between Examinations) Were Filled With Interesting Revision Sessions Where We Debate With Each Other About What's What Before Referring To The Notes to See Who's Right, Then The One Who Got It Right Got Bragging Rights For The Rest Of The Night And Since So Many Of Us Shared The Same Subjects, Jokes We Came Up With Was Very Positively Responded To, Even Used To Remember Important Stuff. Of Course, There's Also So Many Of Us To Tear Stupid DotA AIs To Shreds Even When They Had The Unfair Advantage.

What's More, Back There The Guys Had Youtube To Rely On Whenever They Needed To Let Off Some Steam, Either Through Videos Of Idiots Doing Idiotic Things, Or By Going All Horny After Watching Some Korean All-Girl Group's MV (Which I Didn't Take Part, Glad That Our Tastes Differ In That Department).

Here, Mainly Because We're Already In Our Own Specific Degree Courses That Subjects Are So Course-Specific, And The Lack Of People In The House. And Back Then When I Feel Like Going To My Antisocial Self There's Always A Good Line To Play Cabal With, A Privilege I Lack Here.

And Here I Am Sitting On The Roof Tiles (Literally. They Are Accessible From The Balcony) Letting The Very Strong Midnight Wind Blow The Dampness Out of My Hair While Wondering If Life Is Really Supposed To Get Worse As It Is Now.

Another Filler Post With A Very Emo-ish Feel -.-'

Adieu To Y'all. Hope To Sleep Outdoors With The Wind...

Point Of No Return

That, People, Is City Life.

Once You Start Living In The City, You'd Almost Never Want To Leave For A Country-ish Place Like Kampar. Why, Well, Lets Compare My Home Place With This Wretched Ghetto:

1. Cafes Back Home Don't Give You A Piece Of Supermarket Flour When You Ask For Fish & Chips With Rice; Unless The Owner Started The Business To Accelerate Being Declared Bankrupt (Fucked Up Attitude, Environment, Service, Cleanliness, Food etc.). Here!? DAMN!! Even The Most Luxurious Looking Cafe With The Best Services, Environment And All That Give You Flour Chop Rice. And They Think That Is Cafe Standard...
2. The Line Here Just SUCKS!!! AND I CAN'T COMPLAIN ABOUT THIS ENOUGH!!! Back Home People Can Be Leeching All The Line With 9 Separate Facebook Games, PPStreams And Xunleis EACH And The Line Is Still Better Than The Line Here Even When No One Else Is Downloading Or Facebook-ing.
3. Weather Here Is Extreme. It's Always Either Too Hot Or Too Cold. Not That It Has Ever Been Too Cold For Me But DAMN WHEN ITS HOT IT'S HOTTER THAN HELL!!! Badly Miss Home Where The Weather Doesn't Fluctuate So Wildly.

And Something About UTAR Kampar: I Thought Being The Main Campus And All Their Staff Would Have A Little Better Standards When Conducting The Examinations. But Hell No, Here They Still Read The Before And After Exam Rituals Of "Turn Off Your Phone And Put It On The Floor" And Stuff Like That Straight From The Script. Okay, Maybe They Do Have Better Standards, BECAUSE THEY FUCKING LAMINATE THE FUCKING SCRIPT!!! ROLFMAO

Sorry People If You Don't Prefer To See Strong Words. The 2 Listed Above Really Boils The Blood. And All That Has Been Said Today Were Supposed To Be Said 3 Days Ago And Is Delayed Because Of DMW3 Addiction

Adieu To Y'all. Dragonica Players With Smooth Lines, PLEASE WAIT UP TILL I GET HOME!!! XD

The Day Before Judgment

Tomorrow Is The 1st Day Of My Dreaded Exams. The Day That I Usually Do What Most Others Wouldn't Even Think Of Doing. That's Right, Today, Things On My To Do List Include Cleaning Up Junk In My PC, Speeding It Up, Improvise On Ways To Make Sure It Doesn't Go Boom When You Least Want It To Happen And Setting Up The Alarm Times For The Next Semester. And Of Course, STUDY(WOW, IAN IS STUDYING!!!)!!!

Thanks A Lot Mom For The Encouragement. Got Me Speechless For A While There, But Appreciate Every Bit Of It. Oh Yeah, In Case you People Are Wondering What She Sent To Me, This Is It:

Focus And Repetition Would Commit To Memory, Add A Pinch Of Interest And Passion, The Work Would be Effortless

Guess The Interest And Passion Part Really Moved Me. Don't Worry Mom, I'm Still Studying At This Moment, While I'm Posting This. Won't Disappoint You XD

And This Is Something Totally Unrelated; Recently Vin Has Gone Ga-Ga Over Some Korean Female Singing Group Which Really Reminded Me Of How The Same Group Made The 4 Guys Of 19 (Save CK And Myself) Go All Horny For A Whole Week -.-'

Adieu To Y'all. And Mom, Maybe I Ought To Get You One MSN Account...

The .....er

So Many Words To Fill In The Blanks With, But So Little Space. Lets Go Through Some Of The Many:

1st Up : The Sleeper
For The Past 3 Days, Sleep Was All I Did. Of The 24 Hours Of The Day, I Slept Through Almost 18. Why? Attempting to Study -.-' And Thanks To This, For Once I'd like to Be Addicted To Coffee For A While...

2nd : The Thinker
This 'Study' Week Has Got Me Thinking Of Many Things; Am I Really Satisfied With Life As It Is? Is It Going The Way It's Supposed To? Am I Being Myself? Am I Going To Survive In This Rote-Learning Society? Why Can't I Let Go Of The Past? Are My Thoughts Genuinely My Own? What Am I Really After? Why The Heck Do I Always Mistype Myself As 'Myslef'? And Many Other Abstract, Philosophical Stuff That I Really Shouldn't Bother Myself With At This Age, Or So Says Mom.

3rd : The Sentiment Seeker
Recently Dug Up My Computer Files For Stuff That Reminded Me Much Of My Past(Mostly Of Foundation Life). Some Of Them Included The 2 Files Kai Made As Our Journal Of Some Sorts, My Public Speaking Presentation Files(The Only Presentation Of Foundation That I Kept) And The Entire Season Of La Corda D'oro ~Primo Passo~ That Inspired It, The Vids Of Our Art Gallery... Some Going To The Extents of Reminding Me Of My Primary School Life. Remember Digimon World, Anyone? LOLZXD

4th : The Gamer
More Games Showed Up In Fan's PC, And I Took The Initiative To Get Myself Busy With It. Conclusion? 3 Games 6 Days To Complete Them XD. And While The Line Here Does Not Permit Much Online Gaming, RO Cabal And MapleStory Are Still Being Played Just For The Sake Of Seeing What's New.

5th : The Dreamer
Often I Dream Of Things That Will Never Happen In A Million Years, Not In This Country At Least. One Of Them Is When The Education System Will Create More Thinkers Than Rote-Learners. That's What This Country's all About, No? 17 A's For SPM And No News Of The Person A Year Later, As If She Never Existed. Why? Rote-Learners Earn Fame Here But When The Leave This Country To See The World, They Have Only Shit To Eat. And When Will Creative Writing Ever Have The Slightest Hope Of Really Shining Here? I Don't Remember Hearing Many Malaysian Names Getting Famous For Stuff They Write, Not Like In The West, The Land Of Thinkers. Why? They Appreciate Creativity There. Here The Only Appreciated Thing Is The Number Of A's You Can Get, Which Is Achievable Via Rote-Learning. Like They Say, When The Shit Hits The Fan...

Phew... Think I Made A Pretty Lame Tag Here While I Was At It... So To Anyone Interested, Fill The Blanks With As Many Words As Possible(Minimum 5) And Then Tag As Many People As The Number Of Words Used To Fill.

By The Way, There's The Eater As Well, But That's Not Me. Fan Actually Took The Sushi King's Big Bowl Challenge. Unfortunately He Didn't Succeed. More Info In Vin's Blog. Link Comin Up Soon.

Adieu To Y'all. Until After The Exams Then People XD

Study...? ME!? NEVER!!!

Is A Damn, Negatively Bold Statement That I've Been Trying To Deny Every Time Exams Draw Near, Ever Since Secondary School, That Has Also Never Been Changed, No Matter How Hard I Try.

That's Right People. IMD!!! Here Never Studies. What Goes In The Head During Classes Are All I Count On, For Study Either Makes Me Sleep Or Gives Me A Headache. And What Stays In The Head Goes Out Onto Paper. Those That Don't, Well, Marks My Demise...

Drama REALLY Expanding Here, With Someone Making A Move That Isn't Really Nice, But At Least We Were Informed To Be Prepared Should The Person Suddenly Choose To Do So. What That Move Does Is Instill Much Distrust, And Maybe A Bit Of Betrayal, Abandonment And Desertion.

So Yeah, Until Things Progress More...

Adieu To Y'all For This Is Another Filler Post Of The Study/Fasting Leave.

Moonlight Wanderers

Might Have Got Some People Wondering What The Heck Is All That About. But Before We Get To That, A Bit More Of What Happened Today:

Last Class Of The Sem Was Reluctantly Skipped Because We All Know That No One In My Class Goes For That, Especially When There's Only One Class For The Day. So It's Ipoh Again Today, From 2pm All The Way To 12 Midnight. At Ipoh, It's All About Shopping, McD, More Shopping, Sushi King, More Shopping, Sushi King Again (Amazing, Yes, I Know, I'll Elaborate In A While), And Old Town White Coffee. In Other Words, Today Has Been Very Much About Eating Expensive Food; The Accumulated Price Equivalent To 10 Ordinary Meals.

The Day Begun With Walking Around Jusco Ipoh Looking For A Really Antique Electronic Device That Will Bring Back The Memories Of The Good Old Days Of Anyone, But To No Avail. Then We Stopped By McD Eventhough It's Way Past Its Lunch Offer (We Arrived Slightly After 3 Actually), And Continued Our Search While Vingent Keeps An Eye Out For Some New Formal Clothes Which Fan Told Him To Not Have Hopes High Up. Well, In The End He Was Right; Neither Vingent Nor I Found What We Were Looking For. So We Stopped By Sushi King For 'Tea' While Waiting For The Others To Be Done With Their Stuff, Which Proved To Be A Most Expensive Tea Session Indeed.

We Then Headed To Ipoh Parade to Continue The Search When I Stumbled upon An Outlet Of Anime-Tech; Which Was The Most 'Well-Equipped' One Of All The Anime-Tech That I've Been To. The Selection Of Merchandise That Was There Was Shockingly Huge; At Least Twice That Of The One At Berjaya Times Square. But The Place Sucked For 2 Reasons; 1st Was That The Place Was Dark And Only The Management Will Know What The Heck Are They Saving Electricity For, And 2nd Being The 2 Fellas Who Work There Aren't Really Serious Or Passionate About Their Work; One Sat At The Counter With A Manga In One Hand And A Cig In Another, While The Other Was Stalking Customers While Slashing And Tearing In-PSP-Game Monsters To Shreds, And We All Know That When You Stalk Your Customer You're Supposed To Bug Him/Her Non-Stop With Promoting Your Products And All, Which Never Crossed His Mind. After That Was Again Waiting For Others In Another Expensive Tea Session At Sushi King While We All Wondered What Made Us So Into Sushi All Of A Sudden. But While We Were At It We Made Sure To Try Making Vingent A Sushi Lover. So To Maggie, Joshua And Jeffrey, The Next Time We Take Vingent With Us For RM2 Per Sushi Promo Hopefully He Wont Be So Reluctant to Dig In.

And Of Course On The Way Home We Stopped By Old Town White Coffee So That The Others Whom We Waited For Can Have Their Chance To Finally Eat Coz They Were Shopping The Whole Day Somehow While We Were Able To Have So Many Chances To Stop And Eat.

Back Home We, The 3 Guys 'Intruded' The Westlake Homes Basketball Court, Lied Down And Chatted About Things That Happened Recently While Enjoying The Beautiful Moonlit Sky, Which We Did The Same Yesterday And The Day Before. And For The 3 Nights Was A Most Beautiful Scene To Behold; The Full Moon With A Rainbow For A Halo Around It. Hopefully You Guys Saw It Too.

Actually Fell Asleep On The Said Court And Returned Home Some 6am The Next Day.

And That's How Our Study Week Became Our Fasting Week When We Realized That Today All Our Wallets Are Suddenly Having Their 'Periods'. Sorry For The Sick Metaphor.

Adieu To Y'all. May The Moon Bless All Now That It Has Become An Angel For 3 Nights . XD