Try It Again This Time!!!

Many Times In Life I Find Myself Worrying Unnecessarily. This Is One Of Them. Things That Should Not Happen Have Happened, Things That Shouldn't Be Done Have Been Done. And Here I Am Worrying About Things That I Know Are Very Unlikely, Yet Scarily Possible.

I Have No Idea What The Heck Happened In My Absence, And As Much As My Curiosity Would Want To Know, I'm Trying My Very Best To Not Give A Damn. Coz I Know, In The End, It's Got Nothing To Do With Me Whatsoever.

I Know You Read The Actions Of People Like Words In Books; Easily Understood The Ulterior Meanings And Motives. But You Yourself Speak And Act In Riddles; Puzzles That Aren't Easily Deciphered. And Perhaps I Think Too Much, But I Do Not Find Your Words Convincing. This Time At Least. Your Words Contradict Some Of Your Actions. Some Of Your Own Actions Contradict Other Actions Of Yours.

Why Do I Care So Much For You? Who Knows? I'm Not Even Sure Myself. Some Crappy Reasons Would Be A Twisted Sense Of Responsibility, Personal Duty, Doubt And Finally And Most Ironically, Lust. And I Hate Myself For Feeling This Way.

Adieu To Y'all. Good Luck In Whatever Your Undertakings.

I Made It, Once Again.

Being MIA For Too Long Doesn't Make Anyone Happy, Surely, And I'm Sad To Say That I Have To Be For Some Time Because Of Some Inconveniences, Mainly The Absence Of The Net. And What Have I Learned From This One Week Of Absence? Many Things. Let's List Them Down Bit By Bit.

1. First And Foremost, I'm Proud To Say That I Can Now CYCLE(Just Barely)!!! I Know, Actually I'm Kinda Ashamed Of It Too, Only Being Able To Cycle So Late In Life. So How Does It Feel To Have A Bicycle's P License? FUN! Beats Walking Anytime, Any Day, Any Weather (Except Maybe Up Slopes LOL).


2. Rather Sad To Discover Something That's... Heartbreakingly Surprising, Shall We Say? Let's Not Elaborate On It; It Pains Me To A Certain Extent To Even Think Of It.


3. Someone Nearby Is Really Scary. Okay, Not Literally, But Let's Just Say He's Either Very Observant, Has An Exceptionally Receptive Rumour/Gossip Antenna, Or Both. Can Be Counted On For Information, No Doubt. But Its A Little Unfair To Me Coz I Find It Hard To Comprehend Some Of His Actions.


4. Kampar's Weather Is Very Very Unpredictable, Unfortunately. Unlike As Said By The Rumours, My First Day There Was So Hot That "Even Your Underwear Gets Wet" (Quote By One Of Vingent's Friends) Other Days Its Normal, And When It Rains, It's Hard To Fall Asleep Without A Blanket. And Since We Live Opposite An Undeveloped Piece Of Land, We Get A Lot Of 'Nature's Attendants' At Night, Which Is Annoying When You Need To Sweep A Mountain Of Them Off Your Living Room Every Morning.


5. My Long Absence From The Net World Has Made Me Crave For It More Than Ever, And Now I Find Myself Disappointed By It. Somehow It's Not As Convenient As It Used To Be, Which Sucks. Worst Of All, UTAR's Page Wont Load, So I Don't Yet Know My Timetable!!!
   


6. Kampar Has No Net Till Next 2 Weeks/Months!!! How Will I Survive!? Everyone Who Knows Me Knows That Cutting Me Off The Net Is Like Cutting The Fins Off A Fish. Imagine A Fish Trying To Swim Without Its Fins For 2 Weeks!


7. There's So Much To Do And So Little Time To Do Them. I've Got 2 Days To Finish Stuff Here At Cheras Before I Need To Fly Back To Kampar. But How Can I Do That When The Net Requires Another 3 Days Of My Time To Catch Up With Recent Happenings???


8. A Glance Through Some Of The Timetables In Campus Suggests That There Are Saturday Classes. How Bad Is That? Very. There Is Now Officially 6 Days A Week, With Friday Having 48 Hours In A Day. I Just Hope My Saturdays Are Left Untouched By Damn Classes.


9. I Now Declare My Love For The Chevrolet Corvette Z06, A Car That, Once Upon A Time, Was One Of The Many Muscle Cars That Didn't Register Well In My Car Encyclopedia. Over-Exposure To It In Action Explains The Sudden Polar Change In Attitude.


10. Anime Is Slowly Taking Over Games As The No.1 Most Important Thing In My Life. It's Probably Just A Short Phase Because These Two Have Been Tied For The Last 15 Years And No Clear Winner Has Ever Been Declared, And I Doubt There Ever Will.

Comng Back Home Was Quite The Relief, But Some Asshole Just Has Nothing Better To Do Than To Pour Cold Water On Me. Lets Just Call It A Day Before I Begin On That And Depress Myself Further.

Adieu To Y'all. See Y'all Next Week Or When Streamyx Comes To My Kampar Home, Whichever First.

Now That I Know...

I Don't Feel So Bad About Stuff Anymore. Not That I Don't Totally Feel Anything About Them But, Lets Just Say Things Happened That Gave Me A More Positive Outlook Regarding Them; Or Rather, Something Negative About Them That Makes Me Feel Good About Myself.

Before I Forget, Gratz To Tzia Tzia On Her Very Own DotCom. I Always Wanted One Myself, But Now That You Have Your Very Own, That's A Very Big Step No Doubt.

The Graduation Dinner's Tomorrow Evening. Juiced Today And Was Told That All The Fermented Juice Ended Up In My Shoes (Urgh...). Hope To Sleep For The Next 1/2 Day Without Being Bugged By Damn Bloodsuckers.

The End Is Here To Lead Us To A New Beginning...

Adieu To Y'all.

I'm Proud To Be...

HOME ALONE!!! AGAIN!!!

Lame Stuff Happened Today. Lets Start With Me Falling Asleep Slightly Past Midnight And Waking Up Every Sporadic Hour Until 10.40am. Breakfast, Bath And All Those Things Occupied Me Till Almost 1 When I Tried To Smuggle Myself And My Blood Donation Booklet Out Of The House (Yes, Someone Doesn't Know I've Donated Blood And That I'm Doing It Again Today).

Let Us Just Skip The Trip There, The Bus Ride Is As Awful As Ever.

So There I Was, At Jusco Maluri. Strolled Around Until I Saw The Bunch Of St. John Cadets From My Sec School. Instantly Familiar Faces Started Their Long 'Preach' About Blood, Organ And Fund Donations. Then Realized That Among The Donors, There Weren't Anyone That I Knew. But Whatever, I Thought. Registered For The Thing And Waited For My Turn. Saw Some Of My 2008 Form5 Juniors Marching In Like They Own The Place, And Chatted With Their Friends Who Were On Duty. And When The Whole Thing Was Over, It Dawned To Me That I'm The Only 2007 Form5 Student From My Sec School There. What Happened To You Guys, Huh?

Then It's All The Usual Crap Until On The Way To 19 When An Arse Of A Driver Of A Crappily Modded Waja Tailgated Father's Car. Tried To Overtake But Failed Few Times. Upon Success, However, He Instantly Showed Qualities Of A Typical Road-Rage Seeker; Shouting Out Like A Deranged Butcher And Waving The 'Goldfinger', And Instantly Flew To The Opposite Side Of The Road, Turning Off At A Junction To Who-Knows-Where, Way Away From Where We Were Headed.

Now That I'm Home Alone At 19...

I"M PROUD TO ANNOUNCE THAT MY BLOG LIST HAS EXPANDED!!! ADDING TO THIS HEAVEN'S LIST SOON!!!

Now I Sound Like Some Deranged No-Life-Wannabe.

Anyway, As Usual When I'm THIS Close To Being Bored To Death I Go Be The Busybody That I Am During Times Of Boredom And Fly Around. And What I Saw:
1. Made Me Wanna Laugh (Oh, The Ironies)
2. Got Me Rather Agitated, Because Of Certain Ironies That Fail To Make Me Laugh
3. Gave Me This Simple Impression "EWWWW"

Okay, No Hard Feelings, People If You Happen To Think That Its Your Stuff (Or Is It Even Your Stuff To Begin With?). Just A Totally 100% Honest Opinion You Can Expect From A Drunkard (No, I'm Not Drunk, But DAMN I'M FEELING HIGH).

Adieu To Y'all. I'll Be Juiced In 9 Hours' Time So Wish Me Good Luck XD

P.S: My 3 FRIGGIN SEASONS OF 地獄少女 IS TAKING FOREVER TO FINISH!!!

A Breath... Underwater

Nope, No Shit Happened Today; Just An Opportunity To Catch A Breather Before Being Worked To The Last Drop Of Juice Again. Browsed Through My Usual List Of Blogs And What I Saw Really Strengthened My Desire To Be A Professional Writer. That's Right, My Goal Is to Rot At Home Writing What Some Would Call Rubbish And Let That 'Rubbish' Earn Me A Living In 5 Years' Time.

Something Else I Realized Recently Is That Human Relations Are More Complicated Than Human Emotions. One Such Case Is How Respect And Admiration Is Rarely Reciprocal And Of Course I Mean When People Know Each Other. This Applies To Me Quite Greatly, And Still Hurts Quite Bad. Told Myself I'd Let It Go Long Ago, But I Still Can't Seem To Do So Yet. Yeah, Call Me A Person Who's Got Nothing Better To Do During Spare Time But Hey, I Can't Help It, There's Too Much That's Bothering Me And Solutions To Them Keep Leading To Other Things.

Speaking Of Letting Go, Let Me Share With You Guys One Of The 4 Calamities Of 2007. The 4th, In Fact.

It Was Just A Week Before SPM When My Caretaker Hung Herself. She, Who Was Pretty Much My Godmother(Save The Religious Part) Who Lacks My Dad's Approval, Together With Her Husband, Was Pretty Much Responsible For 40% Of What I Am Today, With The Other 40% Credited To My Biological Parents And 20% To Other People I Met In Life. No Doubt Her Death Was A Great Blow To Me As It Was A Loss To Her Family, And Perhaps Even Had A Direct Impact On My SPM Performance.

This Tragedy Undoubtedly Preceded Many Other Events In My Life. One Of Them Is Me Finally Understanding The Sorrow Of Others During A Funeral. Hers Was The First To Make My Tears Flow, The First To Make Me Understand The Actual Pain Of Losing A Loved One. Cries During Funerals To Me Was A Sign Of One's Inability To Accept What Has Transpired. That Changed During Godmom's Funeral.

It Was Only After The Incident Did We Realize That She Was Suffering From Severe Depression. She Wasn't Exactly Healthy, Suffering From High Blood Pressure And Recurring Gastric Problems. To Add To That, She Was Always Paranoid About Their Financial Well-Being; They Sell Curry Puffs For A Living And Prices Of Ingredients Have Been Fluctuating Wildly Then. And Having Really Typical Busybody Aunties That Spread False Rumours Didn't Really Help Her In Any Way. It Could Have, In Fact, Drove Her Fear To It's Limit, Pushing Her To Choose What She Chose To Do. At Least, Was What Goddad And I Concluded.

Goddad Was Soon Diagnosed With Depression As Well, But Fortunately He's Coping With The Drastic Changes In Life Pretty Well. Then Recently The Passing Of A Quite Famous Taoist Monk Was Publicized In The Local Chinese Papers Which Included His 8 Words Of Wisdom, Which Goddad Remembered Very Well. They Roughly Translate As " Face It, Accept It, Handle It, Leave It", And Supposedly Goddad Is Struggling With The Last Part; Letting Things Go. Seems That I Share The Same Problem, Though Regarding An Entirely Different Matter.

And Maybe Something Good Is Happening To Him For A Change; Both His Daughters Are Getting Married; The Eldest On 6th June And The Youngest In January 2010. Grats And All The Best Wishes To Him And His Family. And That Dinner With Him The Other Night Reminded Me Of The Original Reason I Was Interested In Human Psychology. Hope To Remain In Touch.

Well, That's A Very Huge Chunk Of My Life Revealed. So People New In My Life, If You Find Me Strange, Know You Know One Of The Reasons Why. To Old Friends Wondering Why I Changed So Much, Well, Now You Know.

Adieu To Y'all. Maybe I'd Reveal The Other 3 Next Time...

The Time Has Come And So Have I...

These 3 Weeks Will Be The Busiest Weeks Ever, Packed With All Sorts Of Crap To Do (Or To Rush, For That Matter), From Cleaning Up No.19 For The Next Group Of Tenants To Rushing To Our New Place At Kampar. You May Think That "Oh, 3 Weeks Is A Very Long Time" But Hey, Lets Not Forget All The Other Stuff In Between, Thus implying That I Will Go MIA For That Period Of Time.

And Let Me Vent Out My Anger, Frustration, Hatred And All Their Similar Friends For A Bit:

A Fact That I Hate About Life Is That Shit Happens And When It Does, There's Nothing Else To It Besides You've Been Played, And The Most Impossible Thing To Do About It Is Returning The Favour, Which Is The Thing I'm Trying My Best To Do, Beyond Dying To Achieve It.

So Yea, Adieu to Y'all. Until Next Time Shit Happens, Not To Me Hopefully.

The Successful Disaster Brought By The Blessing In Disguise

The Welcoming Of W902 Into My Life Also Brought 2 Extras With It: 2 Tickets To Lee Hom's Music Man Concert Today At Bukit Jalil. As There Were Only 2, I Thought Of Bringing Someone Who Was A Real Fan Of His Together With Me To What Would Be My First Time Attending Some Singer's Concert. What A Plan, I Thought. It All Went Wrong When She Had Other Plans On That Day, And The Dilemma Of Who To Bring Was Really Killing Me. And Now It Has Succeeded, With Me Deciding Not To Go After All And Offering The 2 Tickets To 2 Of My Housemates.

Why Did I Do What I Did?

What Else Could I Do? They Were All 'Fighting' For The Tickets. Though Not An Obvious Argument Or Fist-Fight, You Could Sense The Silent Strife In The Atmosphere If You Were Nearby. It Was Then That I Decided That I Could Sacrifice My Place For Another, To Let Others Go For It. I Can't Say I'm Alright With It, Though It's Probably For The Best. Better Let It Be Unfair For Me Than Unfair For You Guys, I Suppose.

The Thought Of This Unexpected Misery Was Caused By A Minor Factor That Didn't Go As Planned... What A Turn-Off... Never Though It Was Possible To be So Thoroughly Defeated In Psychological Warfare...

Then Again, On The Bright Side, At Least I Got Rid Of The Cursed White Elephants.

Adieu To Y'all. To Those Who Got To Go For The Concert, Cherish It.

(P.S: It Is An Irony Of The World That Unprivileged People Crave Things That They Don't Have, But Once They Do, They Forget How Valuable Those Things Are. I Just Realized How I Fit Into This Setting A Second Ago.)

Quality Time Before The End

Foundation May Have Ended For Many But For Me, There's Still A Little Time Left To Do What's Left To Be Done.

One Of Them Is To Keep An Unwittingly Kept Tradition Of The Year: Unearthly Visits To Sect. 14 McD.
It Happened Every Semester, During One Of The Fine Days During The Study/Exam Weeks. This Crappy 'Custom' Had 4 People Participate Every Time And Sure Participants Are Vincent And I Myself. The Other Two Seem To Shuffle Between Ashley, Jaz And Siew Wan. Only This Final Time, It's Been Pushed To The Extreme; Staying Up Late Up To 4a.m. For The Breakfast Meals. Sound Like Some Of McD's Ads Before? Yeah, We Thought So Too.

And Yesterday, A Trip To Sunway's Euphoria By Ministry Of Sound London. Was My First Clubbing Experience, And From That I Conclude That Clubbing Is Not My Cup Of Tea; Coz It's My Cup Of Whiskey. Yeah, If Clubbing Was Going To Watch People Get Wild, Laid And Drunk While You Sit Back And Enjoy Your Own Liquor Without Looking Out Of Place If You Don't Join In, Then That's A Different Story. Had Seen Many Making Out, Tipsy Women Trying Erotic Dances On Guys, And Of Course, Took Care Of A Drunk Friend Who Was Along. Sorry No Visuals For That Incident And I'm Definitely Not Disclosing The Person's Identity, Lest There Are Readers Who Somehow Hopped In And Had Defaming As A Hobby. But It Sure Was Some Kind Of Experience For Me.

And Today... (Drums Roll)
To Y'all Out There Looking For Quality Sizzling Sirloin Steak WITH Quality Black Pepper Sauce, Look No Further; Come To RESTORAN MURNI SS2. Okay, The Black Pepper Isn't Exactly The Best Of The Best, But I Must Say Still, It's Above The Rest Of The Other Western Food Restaurant Wannabes' Sauces. The Beef Is A Wholly Different Story. It's Rather Well Done, But Still With Tenderness So That You Won't Be Thinking That You Are Chewing On Squid Or Even An Eraser, And Recently, These Are Qualities That You Almost Never Find Together In A Piece Of Beef Steak. What's More, It Only Costs RM15.

I REPEAT!!!

RM15!!!

How Often Do You Get Quality Sizzling Sirloin Steak At That Price? I've Never, That's For Sure.

Well, The Science Stream Dudes Have One Last Paper To Go. After That, It's Gonna Be DotA All Day All Night Again.

Adieu To Y'all. Hope to See Y'all One Last Time On The 15th!!!