Thursday, January 28, 2010

The Breakdown Snore

Had Another Vivid Dream Yesterday, But The Story Isn't Clear, Jumping From Dwarven Clan Wars To Modern Day Robot-Maids. The Whole Dream Was Very Dragon Age-ish; Considering How Often I Play The Game I Guess It's Explainable.

The Crappy Part Was, When Things Were About To 'Get Interesting', I Was Woken By Vingent's Untimely Snore. The Worst part Of It? He Stopped Snoring Moments After Waking Me Up, 1/2 Hour Before My Alarm Was Supposed To Go Off. -.-'

And Maybe It Was Due To Yesterday's High-Speed Rush Back Home, Cycling Under The Rain That I'm Suddenly Reminded Of The Song 'Fly Me To The Moon And Back' By 'The Spiders From Mars' From One Of The Initial D Movies. So It's Occupying My Ears Until I Find It Boring Again.

Adieu To Y'all. I'll Probably Be Able To Go Back Home For The Lunar New Year After All.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

The Colour Of Pain

Turns Out That The Wisdom Tooth Was Not The Main Problem After All.

What WAS The Problem Is The Ulcer That Was Right Behind It. When It Inflamed The Wisdom Tooth Ended Up Cutting Up The Inflamed Part Which Explains My Pain. So The Dentist Advised Not To Extract The Tooth And Just Take Some Antibiotics To Deal With The Ulcer.

Well, It Means That Extract Or Not, I'll Have To Suffer For Another Week Or Two Before I Can Eat Properly Again. Recently When I'd Usually Finish Eating Before Mother Can Finish 1/2 Of Hers, This Ulcer Made It The Other Way Around.

Oh Yeah, A Damn Interesting (And Some Find Horrifyingly Accurate) Personality Test Based On Colours From Maggie's Heaven.

My Result... Jeng Jeng Jeng!!!:



ColorQuiz.comIan Chee took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

""Feels as if he has been held back from many things..."


Click here to read the rest of the results.



Ian Chee's Existing Situation
Feels there are barriers between himself and the essential things he desires.
Simple And Straightforward. Explained In A Single Sentence That I Never Thought Possible.

Ian Chee's Stress Sources
"Would love a partner with which to share a happy and conflict free existence, but his need for individuality causes him to be over critical and demanding. This leads to problems and disagreements, bringing them close and then pushing them apart, so that his ideal situation can never be fully developed. Though he wants to satisfy his desires, he holds back a part of himself, never allowing himself to give in to those urges. He believes that by holding back he is showing himself as a superior person who is a cut above the rest. He is critical, particular, and has a taste for the finer things; he is judgmental and feels it necessary to express his thoughts and opinions as if they are correct. He enjoys original yet subtle beauty and strives to make friends with only those whose tastes are as refined as his and who can help stimulate and increase his intellect. He desires others to admire him and view him as a highly respected individual."
No Wonder I'm Still Single And Have So Few Friends -.-'. Can't Imagine Myself Being Overly Demanding Though... Maybe Just A Little...

Ian Chee's Restrained Characteristics
"Demanding and picky in his relationships, but careful not to bring out conflict or disagreements and this may decrease his chances of achieving his goals and ideas."
"Emotionally withdrawn, feels forced to make compromises which makes emotional attachments difficult."
"Although he is able to find contentment through sexual activity, he feels hopeless to change his problems and difficulties and continues to make the best of what he has."
"Is emotionally demanding, especially during intimate moments, which leaves him feeling frustrated because he is unable to find a perfect union."
Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.
I Don't Quite Understand The Emphasis On Sexual Activity Though...

Ian Chee's Desired Objective
"Feels as if he has been held back from many things, and that other things have always tried to dominate him. He now feels he has to make up for lost time by living an overly intense lifestyle."
Very Very True. I'd Personally Emphasize On The Dominate Part.

Ian Chee's Actual Problem
"Enjoys making new plans and goals, but needs to be respected and admired for the things he accomplishes."
At This Point I'm Just Amazed How One's Choice Of Picking Colours In Order Can Explain So Much With Such Accuracy.

Ian Chee's Actual Problem #2
"Wishes he was more spontaneous and impulsive, but holds back because he needs things to be in order, rational, and clearly defined."
The First Of My Many Problems That I Realized. And I Seem To Be One Of The Few That Has A Problem Number 2.

Oh Well, Sem3 Life Seem To Suck For Many People And I Don't Feel Good Knowing The Fact That I'm Not Alone. But I Guess It Can't Be Helped. Shit Happens In Life And There's Nothing Much We Can Do About It. The Only Thing I'm Hoping For Now Is That This Damn Ulcer Heals As Soon As Possible. That'll Be The Light At The End Of The Tunnel For Me.

Adieu To Y'all. Do Give The ColorQuiz A Try. You May Be Surprised How The Results Turn Out.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

In Much Wisdom Is Much Grief

A Very True Quote That Does Not Directly Explain My Grief At The Moment. What Actually Caused Me So Much Pain Is In Fact My Wisdom Tooth.

For The Past Week I Was Never Able To Use My Mouth Properly Without Pain. It's Painful To Eat, Sneeze, Blow My Nose, Even Brush My Teeth. Hell, Mere Yawning Is Painful. Screw Yawning, I Can Barely Open My Mouth Just Enough To Stick My Tongue Out Without Pain. Goodness, The Torment. Not Only Is It Not Out Straight But It's Also Been Cutting And Shaving The Inner Walls Of My Mouth. And The Pain Made Me Grit My Teeth So Hard I Think I Have A Sensitive Tooth Now.

And Now I Have To Brush My Teeth Extra Times After Every Meal And When I Bathe In Addition To After Waking Up And Before Sleeping. Not That I Can Have Proper Meals Anyway; I Cant Even Open My Mouth Big Enough To Stuff A Sandwich Through. And The Pain When Food (Hell, Even Water) Touches The Torn Up Walls Inside My Mouth Is Just Excruciating.

When I Get To My Dentist This Saturday To Get It Removed, I Swear It'll Be Like Getting Rid Of A Carcinogenic Tumor.

A Stupid Idea That Came To Me Was That The Wisdom Tooth Was All The Stupidity Of A Person Materializing Causing You All The Pain Ignorance Would Before You Are Rid Of It And With It The Troubles Ignorance Brings.

Also Made Me Wonder How Did People Survived This Sort Of Pain Before Dentists Existed. I Very Much Believe I Would Take My Own Life And Offer It To Some Demon Or Something If It Could Not Be Removed. I Have Had Very Few Other Experiences More Painful Than This, And This Is Made More Painful Due To The Fact That It Lasts.

Oh Well... Excuse Me People If I Haven't Been Myself Lately, And Now You Know Why.

And Until I Get better, Adieu To Y'all.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Probed And Dying

UTAR Staff Called Me Some Time This Week And Told Me That Since I'm Being Probed, I Can't Have Subjects Totaling To 21 Credit Hours. So Yeah, I'm Gonna Have To Drop 2 Subjects This Sem, And Probably Graduate One Semester Later Than Everyone Else. Though I Find It Just A Tad Odd; So Many People Are Suddenly Under Probation And They Just Carry On Like It's Supposed To Happen. I'm Speculating That Them UTAR People Just Wanna Pull People Down So That Students Remain Longer As Students And Will Probably Feed Them More Cash. More If They Successfully Fail The Students So That They Have To Retake The Subject And Pay The Fees All Over Again For The Subject.

Even Scholarship-Sponsored People Risk Losing That Privilege Because Of This. Oh Well...

Ironic That For The 3 Weeks I'm At Home, My Depression Dies Off Finally Tonight, The Last Night Before I Go Once Again To Kampar.

Well, This Is Gonna Sum Up The Whole Week; Mission Success.

Congratulations To Goddad For His Daughter's Wedding Went On Smoothly And My Secret Mission Was Never Jeopardized. I Promise You Goddad, I'm Spending A Whole Year Rotting With You After I Graduate If I Can't Find Anywhere Suitable to Travel Before Finding A Job.

And Just This Morning I Had The Most Bizarre Dream In A Very Long Time. A Very Surreal One No Doubt, That Started Like Some Virtual Reality Game With Deaths And Continues And The Like, But As The 'Story' Progressed It Became More Like Some Romance/Action Flick.

The Story Was Something About The Main Character (Whose Name Was Never Mentioned, Hell, None Of The Characters' Names Were Mentioned) Being Sent On A Mission To Neutralize A Nuclear Proliferation Threat While Making The Entire Incident Seem Like A Suicide Bombing. His Target Was A Female Cyborg That Had An Uncanny Resemblance To Natsume Maya Of Tenjou Tenge (天上天下). Said Cyborg Was Owned By Some Mad Scientist That At Some Point Picked Up A Dying Girl And Turned Her Into What She Is, While Making Her A Key Component In His Plan For A New Age Nuclear War.

It Was Later Revealed That The Protagonist And The Cyborg Were Once Lovers, Torn Apart By Civil War And Uncompromisable Differences. Their Every Encounter Ends With A Brief Martial Arts Exchange And Tear-Jerking Arguments. During Their Final Encounter, The Protagonist Successfully Plants The Detonation Device On The Cyborg, But Set The Device To Detonate Immediately Upon Planting, Destroying Both Himself And The Cyborg. -End-

If Only I Could Remember Every Detail Of The Dream (And If The Plot Was Not Such A Cliché), It Could Be Made Into A Blockbuster 2 And 1/2 Hour Hollywood Hit. It'll Probably Be Another One Of The Very Few Dreams I'll Remember For Life.

Oh Well, See You, Kampar, In 13 Hours Time.

Until Then, Adieu To Y'all.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Setting Things Clear

One Very Obvious Advantage Of FaceBook To Me At The Bloody Moment Is That It Sets Many Things Clear. One Of Them Being The "You Don't Fuck My Life Up I'll Gladly Stay Infinitely Away From Yours" Thing, Which, I'm Damn Bloody Glad I Made The Account Later Rather Than Sooner.

It's The Last Week Of The Break. I'm Still Getting Them Nightmares, The Seemingly Whole Psychology Batch Of Mine Was Badly Screwed Over By The Short Sem Exams, With Many Scoring Their GPA A Whole 1.0 Below The Previous Semester, And The Fact That i'm Depressed Enough Without Any Of These Happening To Me.

And Goddad's Asking A Favour That I'll Risk Getting Nuked In The Ear And Probably Skinned At The Arse If Father Ever Finds Out. And We've Yet To Properly Plan For It.

And Yes People, I'm Back From Penang. Sorry Penang People For Not Paying Y'all A Visit, Unless You're Glad That I Didn't Show Up, Which I'm Sure There's One At Least Having That Thought.

So Yeah, I'm Supposed To Drop Dead On The Bed (This Is Starting To Be One Of My Favourite Rhymes) But I'll Hang On A Little Longer To Make The Moment I Wake Up Worth Waking Up To.

So Until I Do, Adieu To Y'all.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Deadly New Year

Woke Up To A Dream Where I Was Teaching A Dog How To Dry Its Body By Shaking The Entire Body Vigorously. I'm Probably The Father/Mother Dog Myself In That Dream.

I'm Probably Gonna Really Die Before I Get Old. I Sleep More Than I Should, And Can Say The Same For Eating. Went For The Seraya MCA F5 2007 Gathering Today At Sunway. Details Next Post For I'm Really Yay Close To Dropping Dead Now.

And Yes. I Really Feel Life There's So Much More Darkness In Life That I've Yet To See, And Even More Light In Life I've Yet To Experience.

Adieu to Y'all. Another Short Update Before My Probable Eternal Disappearance...

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Not To Mention New Nightmare

Another Nightmare This Morning.

Don't Exactly Remember But It Was Like I Was Torn Apart By 2 People/Things Very Important To Me.

I Vaguely Remember It Involving Swords. Probably Because I Was Drooling Over Real-Life Replicas Of A Few Of My Favourite.

Oh Well...

Penang Trip Decided. It'll Be On The 7th. Anyone Wanna Come Along?

Well, Until Then, Adieu To Y'all.

Friday, January 1, 2010

New Heights In The New Year

Many People And Things Have Achieved The Above. Father's Twisted Mental Schema Has Reached New Intolerable Heights. My Intolerance To All Human Imperfections Have Also Reached New Heights Of Intolerance. And My Busted Biological Clock Has Reached New Heights Of Waking Me From And Putting Me To Sleep.

Well, It's The New Year, And I Trust Y'all Have Your Resolutions For The Next 365 Days. I Accomplished Mine Before 6 a.m. This Morning, So Good Luck To Y'all In Materializing Those Resolutions. And Hopefully Better Things, For Y'all And Me Alike, Will Reach New Heights.

A Short Update Before I Drop Dead On The Bed Again.

This Has Nothing To Do With Anything, But Curse All IT Low Yat For Putting The Razer Imperator On Sale Only After I Got The DeathAdder.

Adieu To Y'all. And A Happy New Year Once Again.

The Date Is 01/01/10

A Very Happy New Year To Y'all Out There.

Well, As Promised To All My Friends Out There, Especially The 19 Gang, I Now Have A FaceBook Account. And Infinite Thanks To All Who Have Voted To Help Persuade Me Into This, With The Polls Resulting In A 49:1 For FaceBook. And I'm Still Keen To Know Who's The Single Individual Who Voted Against It. Do Tell Me Who You Are If You Ever Drop By This Heaven Of Mine Again.

And Yes. A Chain SMS From Maggie That I Felt Rather Meaningful:
Pass This SMILE :) To Anyone Who Made You Smile In 2009. It May Surprise You How Many Comes Back. Thank You For Making Me Smile. Thank You And Happy 2010!
And So, I Take This Opportunity To Thank All The People Out There Who Have Contributed To Making 2009 A Year Worth Smiling In; To The People Of 19, The Guys Of 53, Foundation-Mates Maggie And Le-Anne, Current Classmates Of PY May 2009, Goddad And Mom. Infinite Thanks To Y'all For Convincing Me That 2009 Isn't A Good Year To Die In, And Hopefully, I've Been Able To Return The Favour And Will Continue To Do So In This Brand New Year.

Oh Yeah, Since I'm New To This FB Thingy, Please Add Me If I've Not Added You, For I'm Still Figuring Out How Things Work And May Have Missed Loads Of Things. Thanks In Advance For Tolerating This FB n00b.

It's 5:51 a.m. Now And I've Been Awake For The Past 20 Hours.

Until I Awaken, Adieu To Y'all. Happy New Year Once Again. XD