Friday, February 26, 2010

Homey Heat

I'm Sure Everyone's Aware That We're All Complaining About The Heat So Many Times And In So Many Ways That Sometimes People Surprise Themselves With Their Vocabulary.

Well, What I Actually Want To Say Is That Now I'm Home, And Though The Heat Isn't Any Less Deadly Here, The Line Is Much More Soothing. Bad News Is That They'll Go To Waste On Assignments Instead Of Downloads.

And For Once That I Wanted To Come Back Home To Attend My Secondary School's TKD Class I Find Out That The Class Is Cancelled. Of All The Times. Such A Shame, What A Pity. Well, That Just Means That I've Come Home For Close To Nothing. Close, Very Close.

Talk With Mom After So Long Made Me Realize How People Can Be Very Intolerant To Change. I Am One Such Person, And Probably Explains Why The 8 People Did What They Did; Because I Changed And They Didn't Like It, So They Did What They Did To Make Sure I Got The Message. And Now I Fear I'll Follow In Their Footsteps; I'm Not Taking A Certain Change Lightly, And Because Of What Happened I'm Not Sure I Want To Get The Message Across To The Other Party. Complicated Situation I Find/Put Myself In. Oh Well, Such Is Life. そんな人生。。。

Adieu To Y'all. I Shall Ponder How Quickly A Year Is Passing While I Await Our Next Meeting.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Sudden Turn Of Events

To Sum It All Up, Well, Something That Has Been Expected To Occur Is Now Halfway There. At Least, From What Is Observable. A Sudden Occurrence, But Expected Nevertheless.

And When It's Something Even Retards Would Expect, I'd Say It's About Time; The Fillers Have Been More Than Necessary And It's Finally Time For The Real Story To Go On. The Anticipation Was Something, But The Drag Would Just Kill Of Potential Spectators That Do Not Live Under The Same Roof, Figuratively Speaking.

Adieu To Y'all. Just A Short Newsflash Before I Drown In Anxiety.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Dispirited, Thus Discontinued

Many People Have This Tendency To Pick Up Something They Think Is Trendy, Go For It For A Bit, Then Give Up Because They're Bored Of It. "What's The Point?" Or So They Say, When It Comes To That. Blogging Being One Of Those Things Picked Up And Put Down. Hold On While I Think Of An English Equivalent Of Our Malay Proverb 'Hangat-Hangat Tahi Ayam' For A Bit.

Gah, Whatever, Scratch That.

Though Of Course Perhaps Because Like Poetry, Art, Writing And Music, These Things Also Need A Break While Waiting For The Ever So Coveted Inspiration That Comes So Awfully Late That People Give Up Before It Arrives. Oh Well...

Don't Really Feel Like Playing The New Harmonica In The End, Fearing The Same Process Of Play, Obsess, Neglect, Break And Buy Again Will Repeat Itself. Damn, What's So Terribly Wrong With Me That I Could Neglect My Musical Instrument, One Of The Most High Maintenance Of All My Possessions? (Not That The Harmonica Is That High Maintenance To begin With, Compared To Other Instruments...)

In Saying All That, Perhaps I Myself Seek Inspiration, For It Has Eluded Me For Close To A Full Year Already. I'm No Longer Able To Write My Usual 8 Stanza Poems(Not That I Wrote Much At All Recently), I Don't Feel The Same Burning Passion As I Did Before When I Pick Up The Harmonica(Thus I make More Mistakes More Often) And Whenever Any Of These Happen I Get Depressed And Feel Like Sleeping The Sorrow Away, Which In Turn Makes Me More Susceptible To Depression. The Irony, I Think So Too.

Oh Well, Adieu To Y'all. Until Things Improve. If They Improve.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Midvalley Rally

After Losing Count Of How Long Ago The Last Was, A Fraction Of What Was Once TB1 (Well, Only 5) Gathered For A 'CNY Reunion' In Midvalley. The Result Of The Day Is A Horrible Sore Throat.

First Of Course Was Vingent And I Arriving A Little Earlier Than Planned So We Dropped By McD For Breakfast. Had 2 Cups Of Coffee Which I Shouldn't Have While Waiting For The Others To Gather. A Little Past 11 Came Maggie, Who, After Some Gossip, Decided That In This New Age It's The Children Who Should Be Giving Red Packets To The Parents Instead. Well, *SFX*Twine*SFX*

Then Came Tzia And Le-Anne. By Then I Guess It Was Close To Lunch Time For After Chatting For Not Too Long We Decided To Leave McD And To Have Lunch Somewhere Where We Could Talk Instead Of Shout To Each Other.

The Result? My First Dome Experience. I For One Am Glad That It Has The High Class Kind Of Feel Without The Pressure Of Being Too High Class That A Slob Like Me In T-Shirt, Jeans And Sneakers Would Feel Out Of Place. Don't Know If I'm Making Sense To Y'all But That's As Simple As I Can Put It. And There We Gossiped More While Talking About Or Respective Campus Lives. Somewhere In Between Was The Talk Of Expensive And Exquisite Food That Made Vingent Feel Uneasy To Say The Least. Well Then There Was Talk About Culture, Rich People And Stuff Which Gave Everyone The Opportunity To Let Out A Piece Of Their Mind Without Hurting Any Feelings, Or So to Speak.

Then Maggie Decided She Wanted To Get Fan A Belated Birthday Gift So We Went Around For A While. In The Process We Met Tzia Tzia's Boyfriend (Sorry I Don't Know Your Name) And Decided That Stopping By Zen Was A Good Idea. And It Was There That I Learned A Lesson I Won't Soon Forget: Ordering A Cup Of Iced Long Black For Tea Is A Very Very Bad Idea, Especially If You're Taking It With A Slice Of ZEN Chocolate Cheese And When You've Had Sausage McMuffin And 2 Cups Of Coffee For Breakfast Followed By Iced Mocha With Grilled Beef Steak For Lunch. I Swear It's Like Taking A Huge Glass' Worth Of Expresso With The Same Amount Of Richness As You'd Get In The Usual Small Cup.

When All That Was Over I Took A Detour To Times Square To FINALLY Get My Custom Print T-Shirt Done. Damn The Bloody Printer For Melting Some Cheap Component In It Yesterday, Or I Would've Worn It Instead Of Getting It Just Today.

And Until Now, After Taking Down 1.5 Litres Of Mineral Water I'm Still Wondering If I Can Actually Fall Asleep Tonight, Knowing How Much Caffeine I Consumed Today, Which Is Also Burning My Throat Real Bad At The Moment.

Oh Yeah, Father Finally Got Me The New Harmonica. It's A 14-Hole M.Suzuki. I Was Hoping For Another Hering But They Sound Quite The Same, Which Means I Won't Be Having Any Problems Getting Used To The Suzuki. Pictures Of The T-Shirt And The Harmonica Will Be Here Next Time, If Ever. Pics From Today Can Be Obtained By Visiting The Heaven Of The Sugar Addict.

Adieu To Y'all. I Find Myself Trying To Be Very Glib For Some Reason.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Another Roasted New Year

I Can't Express My Gratitude Enough To The Invention That Is The Electricity-Powered Fan. I Figured I'll Either Cook Myself Under The Sun In Hopes Of A Breeze Or Sleep On The Bench Of Some Not-Very-Crowded Air-Conditioned Shopping Complex Without Them. Ironic That The Nights Are Excruciatingly Hotter Than The Days. The Heat Is So Bad That I Didn't Bother Doing What Most Youths Do These Days During The Chinese New Year: Counting Red Packet Money. Maybe A Sign That I've Grown Old...

And This Is Something I Must Announce:

The 3rd Season That Is "Zan, Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei" Is Just As Bloody Hilarious And The Previous 2.5 Seasons. A Must Watch If You're Looking For Lame, Cold Gags That Will Get You Laughing No Matter How Many Times They Are Repeated.

And If All Goes Well, The Next Time Y'all Meet Me I'll Be Proudly Wearing A Custom-Print T-Shirt That Has Got Me Sweating More Than Necessary. Talk About Dehydration During Celebrations.

Adieu To Y'all. Very Sad To Say That, Indeed, This Year's CNY Isn't Entirely A Happy Outcome, Being A Little Mundane And Uneventful From What Was Expected.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

A Thousand Sunsets

It's Actually Amazing How Random Rumour Mongering a.k.a. "Positive Counter-Intelligence" Can Give One Hope That Will Inevitably Be Crushed; Either Because It's Ultimately Untrue Or That It'll Come True When It No Longer Matters. Like How There's Gonna Be A Jusco/Cinema On The Empty Plot Of Land Next To Tesco Kampar Or How There's Gonna Be A McD Branch On The Empty Plot Of Land Next To The Petronas Station Of New Town Kampar. Both Are Fenced Up And All But Still We've Yet To See Any Real Signs Of Serious Construction.

And The New Library In Campus. Its 3-Storeys' Worth Of "Free To Explore" Area Leaves Much To Be Desired. The Upper Floor (Or Floors, I Didn't Quite Pay Attention To That) Will Hopefully Be Filled And Eventually Opened Soon. Le-Anne, You'd Probably Like It There Then. But For Now, Well, It's Just An Over-Embellished Version Of What It Was; A Small Library, Albeit Large In Area.

CNY Draws Close, And It Seems That I'll Be Spending The Week At Home After All. Not That It's A Bad Thing, Though It's Not Entirely A Happy Outcome Either.

This Load Of Stuff Was What I Actually Wanted To Post In The Previous One But For Some Bizarre Reason Half Of The Previous Post Was Not There And In Trying To Remember Them I Forgot These.

Adieu to Y'all. Hope Some Extinct Tiger Species Will Miraculously Come Back From Extinction.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Shattering Reflection

Call Me Heartless If You Must, But I Just Enjoy The Fact That Someone Has Finally Been Enlightened By The Terrible Truth. I Don't Actually Care If The Person Accepts It Though; It's Enough That It Has Hurt The Person As Much As Said Person Has Hurt Me, Aware Or Otherwise.

I, Too, Admit That I've Recently Been Enlightened By One Such Truth; The Animal Instincts In Me Has Made Me A Hypocrite. And Strangely I Don't Feel Very Much Affected By It. Either Because I Very Much Accept The Fact That I'm An Animal, Or That It's Impossible Not To Be A Hypocrite.

Depression Is More Random Nowadays; It Comes And Goes More Often, Instead Of Staying For A While Before Going Off. Which Is Quite A Bad Thing Because The Result Of It Is I Now Need An Average Of 9 Hours Of Sleep A Day Instead OF The Usual 7. Or Maybe It's Just The Lingering Holiday Feel That Isn't Going To Go Off.

Had Some Sort Of Reunion Dinner With The Bunch Of My Batch. And My First Glass Of Red Wine In Who Knows How Long. Sadly There's Just Enough For One Glass Per Person. Oh Well. Maybe More Next Time.

Adieu To Y'all.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Emotional Crash

Well, Things Haven't Exactly Been Therapeutic For The Heart, With People Feeling Hopeless As Time Passes And Also The Pain In Knowing That One Has Been Kept As A Spare. Hell, No One Ever Wants Anything Like That. What's More, When They're Confused, Torn Apart By Difficult Choices Of The Heart, And Perhaps In Realizing That One Cannot Remain True To The Self.

And Once Again I Am Reminded Of The Brilliant Jokers That Are The People Of UTAR PY T2 May 2009. Fuck The Flexi-Diet Shit For Tearing Me Away From Them. Damn, It's Saddening To Know How Listening To Crap Can Be Such A Healer. And Being Pulled Away From The Whole Made Me Drown In My Self Isolation Which Has Dragged On For A Tad Too Long.

I Am Depressed, But Perhaps Now I See Some Darkness In This Blinding Light. It's Once Again Comfortable To Live When You Know All The Overwhelming Pain Is Not Incomparable. Glad Am I To See Things On The Brighter Side Of A Life That Couldn't Be Any Worse, And That There's Still So Much To Live For.

Many Thanks To The Soundtrack Of Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei And All The Initial D Stages. And A Little To The Story Of Dragon Age: Origins That Let My Close To Dead imagination Wonder A Little Beyond The Horizon.

Chinese New Year And Valentine's Coming With Hands Held In A Rather Awkward Mix, But I'd Say, That's One Less Day For Me To Be Feeling Down, If You Know What I Mean.

Oh Well, Adieu To Y'all.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

The Origin Of Them All

Had Another Strange Dream Yesterday. Wasn't Very Clear But It Was Something About Being A Part Of A Very Big Family, With Almost 10 Siblings. And The Mother Of The Family Was Like A Mix Of A Number Of Motherly Figures I've Encountered Throughout My Life. Like The Perfect Mother Or Something.

And I'm Gonna Give Dream Analysis A Try. Recently These Dreams Come Rather Often And Most Are Rather Meaningful And Memorable. Maybe There's Something I Can Find In Common That Will Explain Some Aspect Of This Miserable Life Of Mine.

It's Been A Whole Week Now And The Song 'Fly Me To The Moon And Back' Is Almost The Only Song I've Been Listening To. Seems That I Wont Find It Boring For Quite Some Time Yet.

Adieu To Y'all. Maybe Y'all Should Give The Song A Shot As Well.