Missin' Murni

Of All Things, I Think So Too. But Can't Help It; Found Something There That No One Does Better.

Dinner With Goddad Today Was When I Can Actually Put My Counseling Knowledge Into Action. And Damn I Felt Good About That. Situation's Not Really Getting Better For Him, Knowing That His Younger Daughter Is Gonna Marry In 3 Months Time. Sad Thing That My Course Is At Kampar, Or I'd Be Able To Keep Him Company Even After That. But Hell, That'll Have To Wait For 2 1/2 More Damn Years. Hopefully During This Break I Can Find A Way To Help Him Clean Up His House; Things Weren't The Same Since Godma's Passing, Even Cleanliness...

So Yeah, Dinner With Goddad Made Me Miss "Restoran Murni SS2" All Of A Sudden. Why? Coz for Dinner Today We Went To A Re-renovated Food Court Near Our Place And Damn I'm Surprised How A Small Change In Atmosphere And A Stage For Stone-Age Karaoke Can Attract So Many More Customers. Seeing Many People, I'd Think (Hell, Anyone'd Think) That The Food There Was Better As Well. And The Western Food Stall Caught My Eye.

At A Glance, The Words 'Sirloin Steak' Stood Out Like A Flare In Darkness. Ordered It, Anticipating High-Quality Beef That I Can Never Get At Kampar Coz I Don't Remember Any Restaurants Selling Beef. Wasn't Totally Disappointed; It Tasted Decent At Least, But It very Much Made Me Wanna Go To PJ Again To Eat The Best Black Peppered Sizzling Sirloin Steak I've Ever Eaten.

Speakin Of PJ, We From No.19 17/21B Street May Go Back There For A LAN Session Of DotA That We All Owe Each Other. And An Outing With Ex TB1-ers As Well.

Until Then, Adieu To Y'all.

Home Sweet Home

People, IMD!!! Is Back At Cheras!!!

Though The Line Here Isn't As Perfect As I Expected, It's Still At Least 3 Times Smoother Than At Kampar.

Busy, Busy Weeks Ahead. Time For Holiday Yeah, But So Many Other Issues That I'd Consider As Work To Finish Up Before The Real Fun Begins. Things Currently Dominating My To-Do List:

1. Getting My Phone Serviced
2. Getting My Real Expensive But Effective Cooling Pad
3. Grinding Dragonica Like Mad (Not Really Sure If I Can Accomplish This)
4. Eat Some KL-Exclusive Food
5. Hang Out Like No Tomorrow.

And Don't Mind Me If You're Looking For Me And I'm Not Around. High Probability Of That Happening This Week.

Adieu To Y'all. Line's Not As Good As I Expected And That's Killing The Mood.

The Prelude's Final Chapter

Don't Know Why But It's Getting Very Stressful To Think Of Post Titles Recently.

Anyway...

Today Is The Last Day Of The Exams For Me. And I've Still 7 Chapters To Cover. And In Four Hours. But What Am I Doing? Heh. Let's Just Say That If I Don't Do What I Do Then I'm Not Being Me.

Oh Yeah, Something We Saw Yesterday That Really Got Our Attention:
A Great Hornbill, Which We All Know To Be The Bird That Very Much Represents East Malaysia, In Kampar. Man, The Size Of This Beauty... Credits To Me (The Spotter), Fan (The Photographer) And Vingent (Owner Of The C905 Used To Take The Pic).

For That Brief Moment We Were All Fascinated By It, Maybe Because All We See Here Besides The Usual Pigeons And Turtle Doves Are Cranes From The Lake Near Campus. Then Came Jokes About Them Migrating All The Way From Sarawak For Some Unknown Reason.

The Net Here Is Getting More And More Irritating, It's So Bad That I'm Actually Reading Up Facts Of My Favourite Games From Wikipedia While Listening To Realtek Enhanced Music When I Can Be Playing RO, MapleStory, Cabal Or Even Dragonica. Can't Wait To Go Home.

And I'm Talking About All These 3 1/2 Hours Away From My Last Paper. Grats To Myself For Remaining Myself.

And Saw Something That Made Me Laugh My Breakfast Out (Well, Was Really Close To) While Blog-Hopping:

If you don't noe me, dun read my blog ok? :D THX

Shouldn't You Make Your Blog Open To 'Inviteds' Only Then o.O? ROFLMBO Anyway...

Adieu To Y'all. Until After 4 PM Then...

P.S.: While The Trend Has Suddenly Shifted From Facebook To Viwawa, Fan Has Decided To Spend His 3 Weeks Worth Of Semester Break On Crayon Sin Chan. Something To With The Manga-ka's Recent Death...

To Dream Of The Past And To Chase After The Future

Monotonous Study Week Life Has Never Been This Boring. Maybe Because There Are Less People Here. It's Never Been This Way Back At No.19 (Damn I Hate To Love Reminiscing About The "Good Ol' Days")

Back Then, Every Day, Or At Least Every Evening Had Something Going On. And Maybe It's Also Because It Was Foundation. Most Mornings And Afternoons Were Wasted Siesta-ing Due to The Weather And The Fact That No One Slept Well During The Mosquito-Dominated Nights. The Evenings Was When Life Was, Well, Life, For A Lack Of Better Words.

Having So Many Subjects In Common, Study Leave Evenings (Or Evenings Between Examinations) Were Filled With Interesting Revision Sessions Where We Debate With Each Other About What's What Before Referring To The Notes to See Who's Right, Then The One Who Got It Right Got Bragging Rights For The Rest Of The Night And Since So Many Of Us Shared The Same Subjects, Jokes We Came Up With Was Very Positively Responded To, Even Used To Remember Important Stuff. Of Course, There's Also So Many Of Us To Tear Stupid DotA AIs To Shreds Even When They Had The Unfair Advantage.

What's More, Back There The Guys Had Youtube To Rely On Whenever They Needed To Let Off Some Steam, Either Through Videos Of Idiots Doing Idiotic Things, Or By Going All Horny After Watching Some Korean All-Girl Group's MV (Which I Didn't Take Part, Glad That Our Tastes Differ In That Department).

Here, Mainly Because We're Already In Our Own Specific Degree Courses That Subjects Are So Course-Specific, And The Lack Of People In The House. And Back Then When I Feel Like Going To My Antisocial Self There's Always A Good Line To Play Cabal With, A Privilege I Lack Here.

And Here I Am Sitting On The Roof Tiles (Literally. They Are Accessible From The Balcony) Letting The Very Strong Midnight Wind Blow The Dampness Out of My Hair While Wondering If Life Is Really Supposed To Get Worse As It Is Now.

Another Filler Post With A Very Emo-ish Feel -.-'

Adieu To Y'all. Hope To Sleep Outdoors With The Wind...

Point Of No Return

That, People, Is City Life.

Once You Start Living In The City, You'd Almost Never Want To Leave For A Country-ish Place Like Kampar. Why, Well, Lets Compare My Home Place With This Wretched Ghetto:

1. Cafes Back Home Don't Give You A Piece Of Supermarket Flour When You Ask For Fish & Chips With Rice; Unless The Owner Started The Business To Accelerate Being Declared Bankrupt (Fucked Up Attitude, Environment, Service, Cleanliness, Food etc.). Here!? DAMN!! Even The Most Luxurious Looking Cafe With The Best Services, Environment And All That Give You Flour Chop Rice. And They Think That Is Cafe Standard...
2. The Line Here Just SUCKS!!! AND I CAN'T COMPLAIN ABOUT THIS ENOUGH!!! Back Home People Can Be Leeching All The Line With 9 Separate Facebook Games, PPStreams And Xunleis EACH And The Line Is Still Better Than The Line Here Even When No One Else Is Downloading Or Facebook-ing.
3. Weather Here Is Extreme. It's Always Either Too Hot Or Too Cold. Not That It Has Ever Been Too Cold For Me But DAMN WHEN ITS HOT IT'S HOTTER THAN HELL!!! Badly Miss Home Where The Weather Doesn't Fluctuate So Wildly.

And Something About UTAR Kampar: I Thought Being The Main Campus And All Their Staff Would Have A Little Better Standards When Conducting The Examinations. But Hell No, Here They Still Read The Before And After Exam Rituals Of "Turn Off Your Phone And Put It On The Floor" And Stuff Like That Straight From The Script. Okay, Maybe They Do Have Better Standards, BECAUSE THEY FUCKING LAMINATE THE FUCKING SCRIPT!!! ROLFMAO

Sorry People If You Don't Prefer To See Strong Words. The 2 Listed Above Really Boils The Blood. And All That Has Been Said Today Were Supposed To Be Said 3 Days Ago And Is Delayed Because Of DMW3 Addiction

Adieu To Y'all. Dragonica Players With Smooth Lines, PLEASE WAIT UP TILL I GET HOME!!! XD

The Day Before Judgment

Tomorrow Is The 1st Day Of My Dreaded Exams. The Day That I Usually Do What Most Others Wouldn't Even Think Of Doing. That's Right, Today, Things On My To Do List Include Cleaning Up Junk In My PC, Speeding It Up, Improvise On Ways To Make Sure It Doesn't Go Boom When You Least Want It To Happen And Setting Up The Alarm Times For The Next Semester. And Of Course, STUDY(WOW, IAN IS STUDYING!!!)!!!

Thanks A Lot Mom For The Encouragement. Got Me Speechless For A While There, But Appreciate Every Bit Of It. Oh Yeah, In Case you People Are Wondering What She Sent To Me, This Is It:

Focus And Repetition Would Commit To Memory, Add A Pinch Of Interest And Passion, The Work Would be Effortless

Guess The Interest And Passion Part Really Moved Me. Don't Worry Mom, I'm Still Studying At This Moment, While I'm Posting This. Won't Disappoint You XD

And This Is Something Totally Unrelated; Recently Vin Has Gone Ga-Ga Over Some Korean Female Singing Group Which Really Reminded Me Of How The Same Group Made The 4 Guys Of 19 (Save CK And Myself) Go All Horny For A Whole Week -.-'

Adieu To Y'all. And Mom, Maybe I Ought To Get You One MSN Account...

The .....er

So Many Words To Fill In The Blanks With, But So Little Space. Lets Go Through Some Of The Many:

1st Up : The Sleeper
For The Past 3 Days, Sleep Was All I Did. Of The 24 Hours Of The Day, I Slept Through Almost 18. Why? Attempting to Study -.-' And Thanks To This, For Once I'd like to Be Addicted To Coffee For A While...

2nd : The Thinker
This 'Study' Week Has Got Me Thinking Of Many Things; Am I Really Satisfied With Life As It Is? Is It Going The Way It's Supposed To? Am I Being Myself? Am I Going To Survive In This Rote-Learning Society? Why Can't I Let Go Of The Past? Are My Thoughts Genuinely My Own? What Am I Really After? Why The Heck Do I Always Mistype Myself As 'Myslef'? And Many Other Abstract, Philosophical Stuff That I Really Shouldn't Bother Myself With At This Age, Or So Says Mom.

3rd : The Sentiment Seeker
Recently Dug Up My Computer Files For Stuff That Reminded Me Much Of My Past(Mostly Of Foundation Life). Some Of Them Included The 2 Files Kai Made As Our Journal Of Some Sorts, My Public Speaking Presentation Files(The Only Presentation Of Foundation That I Kept) And The Entire Season Of La Corda D'oro ~Primo Passo~ That Inspired It, The Vids Of Our Art Gallery... Some Going To The Extents of Reminding Me Of My Primary School Life. Remember Digimon World, Anyone? LOLZXD

4th : The Gamer
More Games Showed Up In Fan's PC, And I Took The Initiative To Get Myself Busy With It. Conclusion? 3 Games 6 Days To Complete Them XD. And While The Line Here Does Not Permit Much Online Gaming, RO Cabal And MapleStory Are Still Being Played Just For The Sake Of Seeing What's New.

5th : The Dreamer
Often I Dream Of Things That Will Never Happen In A Million Years, Not In This Country At Least. One Of Them Is When The Education System Will Create More Thinkers Than Rote-Learners. That's What This Country's all About, No? 17 A's For SPM And No News Of The Person A Year Later, As If She Never Existed. Why? Rote-Learners Earn Fame Here But When The Leave This Country To See The World, They Have Only Shit To Eat. And When Will Creative Writing Ever Have The Slightest Hope Of Really Shining Here? I Don't Remember Hearing Many Malaysian Names Getting Famous For Stuff They Write, Not Like In The West, The Land Of Thinkers. Why? They Appreciate Creativity There. Here The Only Appreciated Thing Is The Number Of A's You Can Get, Which Is Achievable Via Rote-Learning. Like They Say, When The Shit Hits The Fan...

Phew... Think I Made A Pretty Lame Tag Here While I Was At It... So To Anyone Interested, Fill The Blanks With As Many Words As Possible(Minimum 5) And Then Tag As Many People As The Number Of Words Used To Fill.

By The Way, There's The Eater As Well, But That's Not Me. Fan Actually Took The Sushi King's Big Bowl Challenge. Unfortunately He Didn't Succeed. More Info In Vin's Blog. Link Comin Up Soon.

Adieu To Y'all. Until After The Exams Then People XD

Study...? ME!? NEVER!!!

Is A Damn, Negatively Bold Statement That I've Been Trying To Deny Every Time Exams Draw Near, Ever Since Secondary School, That Has Also Never Been Changed, No Matter How Hard I Try.

That's Right People. IMD!!! Here Never Studies. What Goes In The Head During Classes Are All I Count On, For Study Either Makes Me Sleep Or Gives Me A Headache. And What Stays In The Head Goes Out Onto Paper. Those That Don't, Well, Marks My Demise...

Drama REALLY Expanding Here, With Someone Making A Move That Isn't Really Nice, But At Least We Were Informed To Be Prepared Should The Person Suddenly Choose To Do So. What That Move Does Is Instill Much Distrust, And Maybe A Bit Of Betrayal, Abandonment And Desertion.

So Yeah, Until Things Progress More...

Adieu To Y'all For This Is Another Filler Post Of The Study/Fasting Leave.

Moonlight Wanderers

Might Have Got Some People Wondering What The Heck Is All That About. But Before We Get To That, A Bit More Of What Happened Today:

Last Class Of The Sem Was Reluctantly Skipped Because We All Know That No One In My Class Goes For That, Especially When There's Only One Class For The Day. So It's Ipoh Again Today, From 2pm All The Way To 12 Midnight. At Ipoh, It's All About Shopping, McD, More Shopping, Sushi King, More Shopping, Sushi King Again (Amazing, Yes, I Know, I'll Elaborate In A While), And Old Town White Coffee. In Other Words, Today Has Been Very Much About Eating Expensive Food; The Accumulated Price Equivalent To 10 Ordinary Meals.

The Day Begun With Walking Around Jusco Ipoh Looking For A Really Antique Electronic Device That Will Bring Back The Memories Of The Good Old Days Of Anyone, But To No Avail. Then We Stopped By McD Eventhough It's Way Past Its Lunch Offer (We Arrived Slightly After 3 Actually), And Continued Our Search While Vingent Keeps An Eye Out For Some New Formal Clothes Which Fan Told Him To Not Have Hopes High Up. Well, In The End He Was Right; Neither Vingent Nor I Found What We Were Looking For. So We Stopped By Sushi King For 'Tea' While Waiting For The Others To Be Done With Their Stuff, Which Proved To Be A Most Expensive Tea Session Indeed.

We Then Headed To Ipoh Parade to Continue The Search When I Stumbled upon An Outlet Of Anime-Tech; Which Was The Most 'Well-Equipped' One Of All The Anime-Tech That I've Been To. The Selection Of Merchandise That Was There Was Shockingly Huge; At Least Twice That Of The One At Berjaya Times Square. But The Place Sucked For 2 Reasons; 1st Was That The Place Was Dark And Only The Management Will Know What The Heck Are They Saving Electricity For, And 2nd Being The 2 Fellas Who Work There Aren't Really Serious Or Passionate About Their Work; One Sat At The Counter With A Manga In One Hand And A Cig In Another, While The Other Was Stalking Customers While Slashing And Tearing In-PSP-Game Monsters To Shreds, And We All Know That When You Stalk Your Customer You're Supposed To Bug Him/Her Non-Stop With Promoting Your Products And All, Which Never Crossed His Mind. After That Was Again Waiting For Others In Another Expensive Tea Session At Sushi King While We All Wondered What Made Us So Into Sushi All Of A Sudden. But While We Were At It We Made Sure To Try Making Vingent A Sushi Lover. So To Maggie, Joshua And Jeffrey, The Next Time We Take Vingent With Us For RM2 Per Sushi Promo Hopefully He Wont Be So Reluctant to Dig In.

And Of Course On The Way Home We Stopped By Old Town White Coffee So That The Others Whom We Waited For Can Have Their Chance To Finally Eat Coz They Were Shopping The Whole Day Somehow While We Were Able To Have So Many Chances To Stop And Eat.

Back Home We, The 3 Guys 'Intruded' The Westlake Homes Basketball Court, Lied Down And Chatted About Things That Happened Recently While Enjoying The Beautiful Moonlit Sky, Which We Did The Same Yesterday And The Day Before. And For The 3 Nights Was A Most Beautiful Scene To Behold; The Full Moon With A Rainbow For A Halo Around It. Hopefully You Guys Saw It Too.

Actually Fell Asleep On The Said Court And Returned Home Some 6am The Next Day.

And That's How Our Study Week Became Our Fasting Week When We Realized That Today All Our Wallets Are Suddenly Having Their 'Periods'. Sorry For The Sick Metaphor.

Adieu To Y'all. May The Moon Bless All Now That It Has Become An Angel For 3 Nights . XD

Accepting An Immortal's Death

Somewhat Got Over The Fact That Desired Company Is Never Always Yours.

The Incident Today No Doubt Stressed Me To No End. Hell, Merely Thinking Of It Now Makes Me Wanna Tear My Own Heart Out, Condense It With Rat Poison And Shove It Down The Throat Of The One Responsible. But Then Again, Who Am I To Complain? There Are People Who Go Through Worse, For Longer. A Good Friend At That.

What Happened Today Really Made Me Think If I Can Ever Survive In The Outside World. Regardless Of How Much I Thought I have Changed, In The End I'm Still The Same Wolf That Sticks To Its Pack, Although There Have Been Multiple Different Packs That This 'Lone' Wolf Has Called Family.

Being A Part Of UTAR Kampar PY T2 May 2009 Made Me Feel Like I Was Being In Another Small Community. Sure, The Lecture Classes Are Made Up Of 5 Tutorial Groups, But Somehow Or Rather, I Feel That I Can Never Be A Part Of The Large Society And Always Stuck Within The Small Community. Now That 'Fate' Will Have Us Separated, It Got Me Wondering How Am I To Cope With Life Next Sem, Where Of The Family Of 26, Supposedly Only 6 Or 7 Will Be In The Tutorial Group I Was Innocently Led Into.

The Whole Day Was Wasted Ghost Hunting (Today Was The 14th Day Of The Lunar Calendar's 7th Moon, Supposedly The Most Ominous Day Of Every Lunar Year) And Thinking About How To Survive The Next 3 Months, Not Forgetting How To Reunite This Family. It Never Occurred To Me That There May Be Some That Wished For Change, That Some Are Scum That Should Leave The Family And Some Other Nobler Ones Should Take Their Place. I Won't Deny It; I'm One Such Individual, But This Arrangement Is totally Not What I Had In Mind.

Finally I Thought, If I Could Call The Initial 26 People Family, Why Can't I Do The Same For The New 30? I've Done It In Every Freaking, Miserable Year That Has Education Play A Major Role In It, Including Foundation, So Why Can't I Do It Now? Could It Be That I, Myself, Believe In Fate? Could It Be That I Believe The 26 Of Us Were Fated to Be Together? Could It Be That I Do Not Want To Know More People, To Not Have Any More In My Circle Of Acquaintances Than Necessary? Possibly True, For After All, How Many Of Them Actually Made A Difference In My Life? The Number Was Great In Foundation, And Is Not Very Much Less Here. But Could It Be That The Initial Few Matter And The Rest Do Not? But Then Again, What Difference Does It Make, Ultimately? Why Is It Still So Hard To Part With The People Whose Bond With Them You're Not Even Certain Yet? What's The Fear Of Meeting New People Besides Getting Hurt Unnecessarily, Which Both Are Also Inevitable?

Damn, The Childish Infatuation And Lust Should've Been Long Gone History Already. I'm 18 for The Devil's Sake, A Young Adult In This World Of Mortals! Even My Teenage Years Are Drawing To A Close! How Can I Still Have Desires, Emotions And Behaviours Of An Immature Weakling!?

In The End I'm Glad I'm Reminded That I Have A Friend That's In A Situation Worse Than Mine, And That Tells Me I Should Accept Things For What They Will Be. And Here I Am Claiming To Be Empathetic Towards Her And Yet I'm Ranting On And On About Something So Trivial. Sorry Le-Anne, But I Guess I Truly Understand Now How Your Life Has Been In UNITAR All This While.

And So This Issue Has Come To A Temporary Close. Yes, Just Temporary. I'm Not Giving Up Going Against Accursed 'Fate' Just Yet.

Adieu To Y'all. With The Close Of This Chapter Marks My True Understanding Of Empathy.

To Be Dragged 6 Feet Underwater...

Pissed I Am That What Happened Today Happened. Still Am And Still Wished It Never Did. Will Remain So Until The Situation Has Been Remedied. Don't Expect Me To Appear Before You Until It Is. If It Can't, Well, Then May The One Responsible For My Agony Taste Hell From This Moment On To Eternity.

Although This Incident Has Helped The Final Episode Of The Devil's Saga (Which Was Stumped For The Past 3 Months) Reach One Step Closer To Completion, Make No Mistake, I AM IN NO WAY HAPPY THAT WHAT HAPPENED HAD HAPPENED! There Will NOT Be A Second Time Or I WILL Purge You To A Crisp With The Inferno Of Hell MYSELF!

I Should Have Ended Your Life For This... For Robbing From Me What Was Rightfully Mine... Consider Yourself Lucky That I Did Not, And Let You Drag Me Into The Hell That You've Brought Upon Us, Intentional Or Otherwise.

Adieu To Y'all. And Be Prepared To Vanish From The Face Of This World Lest You Push Me Further...