Nightmare After Valentine's

No, I Did Not Dream Of A Break-Up Nor Did I Dream Of A Grossly Tragic Ending. The Nightmare Itself Was After I Actually Woke Up, Not To Mention That It Was The Rudest Awakening In The Entire 18 Years Of My Miserably Less-Than-Ordinary Life.

I Fell Asleep At 2++ In The Morning And Woke Up At 3+ With My Whole Body Soaked With Sweat. The Sweat Part Was Normal, But What Wasn't Was What I Felt Aside From That; Something Was Prickling All Over My Hand. Instinctively I Raised My Hand To See What It Was And What I Saw Really Freaked Me Out, And It's Been Almost Forever Since I Last Freaked Out. A Black Patch, Darker Than The Darkness Of The Night... I Think It's Obvious Enough What It Was...

A Mere Hour Of Sleep And My Drowsy Self Just Sprung Awake Overdosed With Adrenaline.

And So Like Any Other Person (Unless You're A Roach Fan Or Something) I Flicked It Off And Rushed To The Switch, Turn The Lights On And Hunted The Pest Down And Ended It's Miserable Life, Only To See Another Of Its Kind Passing My Room Out At The Corridor. And Just When I Thought Killing That Would Give Me Enough To Believe That The Ordeal Was Over, I Went Down To Take A Drink, Only To Find Another On The Stairs.
Without A Doubt That Thing Died Soon After.

Still Shocked, I Let About 2 Liters Of Liquid Down My Stomach, Ranging From Plain Water All The Way To Chrysanthemum Tea, While Reading Yesterday's Paper. That Went On Till About 5 Before I Decided To Jog All The Adrenaline Out.

Came Back An Hour Later With Literally Shaved Skin Between My Thighs. Took A Bath And Wanted To Go To Sleep Again Only To See Another You-Know-What On The Stairs...

And Ended Sleeping The Whole Day. Some Nightmare...

Adieu To Y'all... zzzZZ

Will I Be Your Valentine?

Yeah, That's Another Lonely Valentine's Day In My Life; In The Sense That I'm Still Single. But That Doesn't Mean That Singles Can't Celebrate The Day Now, Does It? So Today, Yours Truly The Part Time Poet Is Gonna Say That I Have Celebrated The Day With My Pals And This Is To Y'all And For Y'all Who've Been My Pals, Buddies, Friends And All Other Synonyms Of The Meaning To Me. Whether Or Not We Celebrated The Day Together Does Not Matter; Here's My Sign Of Appreciation To Y'all

From red satin to scarlet flowers,
The colour of this holy day,
Good friends gather and converse,
Hoping that they will remain that way.

No amount of gold would have sufficed,
To grant freedom to a dove,
Just as Valentine was sacrificed,
To help unite those in love.

Though much is unknown about this martyr,
His execution became the starter,
Of this loving tradition,
That lives on till this generation.

On this day, people express affection,
To those that share the special connection,
Messages of love from heart to heart,
No matter the distance apart.

When good times come to mind
You guys quickly come behind,
When boredom gets in the way;
I know you can make that go away.

We knew each other not for long,
But knowing you could never be wrong,
Though in life people come and go,
You mean more to me than you know.

Not many had lighted my fire,
Even fewer could lift me higher,
Knowing you is an unmatched pleasure,
An individual I truly treasure.

I do not know how else to say,
That I hope we do not go far away,
I hope this friendship is here to stay,
As I wish you a Happy Valentine's Day.

Hope Y'all Continue To Love Till The End. Adieu To Y'all.

Isolation And Depression

They Say Shit Happens When You Least Expect It. Well, Lets Just Say Some Really Big Shit Happened Today And Everyone Is Paying For It; Monetarily and Mentally.

The 'Big' Plan Was To Go Clubbing Today. So Some Of Us Wanted To Head Back To Cheras To Pick Up Appropriate Clothing For The Thing. Some Cursed Accident Happened And The Was Canceled. How Nice It Would Be If Only The Plan Was Canceled...

Yeah, That's Not All That Happened. The Car's Tyre Was Busted Bad And Had To Be Replaced. Approximately RM250 Gone There. Then Another Unknown Amount That May Fly All The Way To RM1k Is To Be Paid As Compensation To The Other Party. Money Problem Aside, The Driver, Our Uncle Jaz, Now Suffers Dearly Due To The Immense Pressure He's In. His Parents Have Yet To Know Of This, And I Doubt They Visit My Heaven Ever, And So To Those Who Do Frequent These Lands, Please Do Your Part In Keeping This Mess Under Control By Not Spilling The Beans To The Wrong People Until Further Notice.

And Yes, Like Every Depressed Teenager Including Myself, He Secluded Himself With His Problems From Us All. We His Bros And Sis Searched The Whole Section 17, Parts Of Section 13, 14, Sentosa And even SS2, Until We Found Him In The Least Expected Spot: A Field Off 17/21c Street.

Self Isolation Does Seem Like The Way Out Doesn't It? In Fact It Is For Many People In Many Different Situations. Yeah, I Do That Too, But Lets Just Say That Isolation Doesn't Allow Me To Overstay And Kicks Me Back To Company.

So Many People To talk To, So Little Courage, Poor Me. And I Comfort Myself By Thinking I'm Not Disturbing Their Peace And Quiet. What A Cheap Bluff, I Know. I Feel Sorry For Myself For That Too...

Adieu To Y'all. And Know That I'm Here For You If You Need Me XD

Demons In Heaven

Decided To Postpone The Hellish Theme Of This Blog Because Of Many Clashes With The Current One, Not To Mention The Many Things Which Changes Won't Be Applied To Both When Either Has Been Edited.

And Its 3 Mins To 3am And 1/2 The House Is Still Awake, With 1/2 Of The Awake Gambling With A New-Found Game Of Theirs. What We Did Before Was A Party-ish Dinner At Jaya One's Station 1. A Whole Bucket Of Carlsberg There And A Bottle Of Tiger At Home; How Much Alcohol Before The Holidays Are Officiated? Currently Drowning Myself With Pure H2O Now To Prevent Myself From Dying From A Hellish Hangover.

Again Its The Holidays. For The Next 2 Weeks People Are Gonna Act Like They Never Knew Each Other; No Calls, No Messaging, No Contacting Whatsoever. After The Said 2 Weeks They're Gonna Meet Each Other Like They've Been Friends For The Past 10 Years And Have Never Seen And Talked To Each Other For The last 5. Ironic? That's The Way Humans Survive. Ironically.

I Now Bid You All Adieu While I Drown In My Own Disappointment.

From The Depths I Have Returned

Marketing Paper Killed Many People Besides Me It Seems. But It Matters No More. The Time Of Undeath By The Control Of Papers Is Over. Life Has Returned To This Still Living Body.

And How Do We Celebrate The Return Of Life? No One Knows Yet. But it's Almost For Certain That DotA Will Play A Major Part In This Ritual Of Resurrection.

Adieu To Y'all For I've Forgotten What Else I Wanted To Say -.-'

It's Freezing Cold

Not In Temperature, Mind You. As Far As I Know PJ Weather Never Been Below 27 Degrees Celsius. What I Mean Is The Atmosphere. It's Eerily Quiet And The People That Usually Make The Most Noise Are Whispering Around; The People Who Don't Usually Talk Do Not Talk At All. Is This What Exams Turn Us Into? Zombies In The Control Of PAPERS OF ALL THINGS!? Damn, Man. Really Not Used To It. Even The Previous Sem Wasn't Like This.

Look, I Know You Hate Me. I Hate Myself Too For Feeling The Exact Opposite About You. But At Least Enlighten Me About How And When I Offended You... You Can't Just Shove Towards Me The Cold Shoulder...

kono atsui omoi wo uketomete hoshii

Hesitation And Cowardice

Yesterday Would've Been The Most Messed Up Night In My Life. Got To Bed Around 2+am Trying To Fix My Com's Sucky Performance After A Brain-Juicing Session Of 'Study'. Images Of People's Faces And Scenarios And Many Other Things That I Shouldn't Be Thinking About Just Came Screening Through My Mind Before I Fell Asleep. Wrapped My Entire Body Save My Head In My Blanket To Not Be Assaulted Further By Mosquitoes And Tried To Close My Eyes And 'Cleanse' My Thoughts. When I Woke Up, I Found Myself Neither On The Wrong Side Of The Bed Nor Off The Bed, But On Another Bed(Okay, They're Not Beds, Just Mattresses). And Yeah, Woke Up Feeling So Screwed And Confused, Not To Mention That I've Been Waking Up Every Morning This Week With A Minor Sore Throat And A (Blocked/Stuffed/Congested/Whatever You Call It) Nostril.

Recalling My Classmates' Reactions Towards Exam Papers And How Well They Did Them (Last Sem And This Sem Alike) Really Made Me Feel Ashamed Of Myself. Many Show Anxiety When Preparing For An Exam And Are Worried About How Bad The So-Called 'Screwed Up' A Paper, Even When They Get As In The End. Some Others Try To Hide That Anxiety. Me? The Worst Of Them All; I Do Not Feel Any Anxiety Until I Sit Down Looking At The Questions Of The Exam Papers, And Feel Nothing After I Step Out of The Exam Hall, No Matter How Badly I Screw Up. And Of Course Thanks To The Excessive Care-Free Attitude I Get The Unsatisfactory Results. Totally Agree With You, Gavin; They're The Type Of People Who Are Gonna Excel In The End. It's The Worry That Drives Them Further, The Intrinsic Reward That Makes Up For The Earlier Felt Stress (Damn, Management Stuff Still Lingering Around).

It's Halfway Through The Exams And I'm Still Thinking About Stuff I Shouldn't Be Thinking About.
SOMEONE GET ME A CURE FOR THIS~~~!!!@@@

Ah Yes, This Might be Something That Interests Y'all. Harsh, No Doubt, But True. Saw It In Some Gamers' Forum But Forgot Who Actually Used It As His Sig

Procrastinating Is Like Masturbating; It Feels Good While You're At It, But When You're Done You Realize You've Just F***ed Yourself.

Oh Well... I Guess That's All For Now. Adieu To Y'all.

motomereba motomeru hodo ni setsunai kyori wo kanjiteru My Heart

kowareru hodo aishetemo san bun no ichi mo tsutawaranai
junjou na kanjou wa karamawari I Love You sae ienaideiru My Heart

Heaven Is Hell And Hell Is Still Hell

Yeah, It's 10 In The Morning; I'm Sitting For My Exams In 4 Hours Time. Just Got To Experience A Situation Where Excessive Love And Respect Towards The Family Can Be Devastating To One's Own Well-Being And Mental Health.

Though Not An Experience Of My Own, I Think This Situation Answers A Personal Question Of Mine. Thanks For Sharing Your Situation; I Hope Others You Shared It With Gained As Much As I Did.

That Aside, It's The First Day Of The Exams People! While The Science Stream Fellas Are Already 1/2 Way Through Their First Paper, I Still Have Some Time To Revise On What's What. And So Good Luck And Adieu To Y'all. Hope Y'all Do Good Enough To Meet Your Personal Expectations.

Chinese New Test -.-'

Well...

That's The End Of The Study Weeks And Exams Begin Tomorrow. Before Anything Else, Here's Something For You Guys:

The year of the Ox draws near,
Ridding a year of superstitious fear,
As the cycle enters its second stage,
So do we become more mature in age.

Though with time the red packet has evolved,
One thing about it still remain,
Not the coin strings or paper notes involved,
But the blessings that they contain.

Red and new from head to toe,
Bringing riches that continue to grow,
Let the streak of fortune flow,
Into our homes bright with a scarlet glow.

May we all have good reasons for cheers,
Limitless joy for the coming years,
May you be blessed with infinite wealth,
While remaining in the best of health.

Exchange of gifts as a sign of thanks,
For being the nice family you have been,
While the children play childish pranks,
The reminisce of the elders begin.

Many gamble to test their luck,
Others to earn the extra buck,
In the end, win or lose matters not,
What does is how close your family got.

Getting together on the big day's eve,
Staying awake till the current year's leave,
As we wonder how fast time flies,
So soon we bid another year goodbye.

Accept this from me, a small souvenir,
Along with a new spring's chime,
I hope I'm the first to wish you this time,
A very prosperous Chinese New Year.

Nothing Much To talk About Regarding The Exams... So...
Yeah, Adieu To Y'all. Until After The Exams.