Pok Meng Sek

That's Exactly What We've Been Since The Fridge Came Into The Life (Or Lives) Of The 53 Guys.

Thanks To It, We Now Spend RM50 Extra Whenever We 'Resupply' At Tesco, And Whenever The Fridge Is Not Empty, We Literally Put Our Lives On The Line To Empty It. Interesting Quotes:

Diet? That Can Wait - FPM
Health Problems? Cross The Bridge When You Reach It - IMD

Of Course, Those Were Jokes, And We're Not Really Idiotic Enough To Be Eagerly Sick. But One Thing Is True: We Really Pok Meng Sek (Cantonese For Putting One's Life On The Line In The Name Of Eating)

And Someone Is Happy With The Way Some People Are Right Now, And I Take Direct Reference To What Was Mentioned In The Previous Post. Someone Is So Happy, That Someone Bothered To Cry Tears Of Sorrow To Show The Happiness. Oh Well, Morons Remain Morons, And To Enlighten Them Is To Cause Them Suffering Beyond What They Can Endure. So To Ensure That They Live Long Lives (And Shorten That Of Those Around Such A Moron), 3 Cheers To 'Ignorance Is Bliss'. Practicing Buddhists Out There, Please Tell Me Which Invites More Bad Karma: To Keep Knowledge From Others Or To Bring Suffering To Others?

That Aside, PEOPLE WHO READ, PLEASE CAST A SIMPLE VOTE ON THE RIGHT!!! I ASSURE YOU THAT IT IS MORE BENEFICIAL THAN SENDING CHAIN MAIL/SMS-ES!!!

Phew... Oh, Well... Adieu To Y'all.

Taken For Granted

That Is Us, The People Around A Particular Bitch That Has Been Playing A Child's Game, Seeking The Attention And Concern Of Others When She Barely Deserved It. A Living Contradiction. Hell, If I Were To Make A Yin And Yang Out Of The People I Know, She's Pair Perfectly With My Father, For One Both Seek Attention They Don't Deserve, Both Are Irrational, And Both Are Idiots. And They Are Just Like Yin And Yang Because One's A Bitch While The Other Is A Prick, One's Young And The Other Old, And Most Importantly, One Gains Depression From Praise While The Other Gains Pride From Being Hated.

You Say You Hate The Feeling Of Being Alone When You Are The One That Tossed Those Around You Away.

You Hated The Time You Cried Alone When You Were The One Who Refused To Join Our Laughter.

And You Asked Yourself A Damn Good Question: Why The FUCK Are You Even Here When You Hated The Moment You Returned!?

You Take Us For Strangers When We Are Your Friends!

You Take Us For Aliens When We Are Your Family!

And Yet You Still Dare To Ask: Where Is Your Family And Beloved Friends!? MAYBE YOU WANT TO CHECK THE TRASH CAN BEFORE YOU ASK THIS KIND OF QUESTION!!!

You Think You're The Only One That Feels Alone!?

You Think You're The Only One That Doesn't Wish To Stay Here!?

Well Then, Bitch, If You Think There's A Place That Belongs To You, Then Sorry To Burst Your Bubble, But YOU EXPECT TO HAVE A PLACE THAT BELONGS TO YOU WHEN YOU LEFT THE PLACE WHERE YOU BELONG!!!???

Fine. Go Back And Rot In Memories Of The Past; The Very Memories That Gives Us Reasons To Feel Grateful For The Lives We Live.

It's Because We're Alone That We Have Friends; So That We Do Not Bear The Pain Alone!

It's Because Of No Longer Feeling Alone That We Can Tolerate Being In A Place We Need Not Be!

You Have The Least Right To Complain About Loneliness When You Chose To Isolate Yourself. You Bring All The Drama Upon You And Drag Us All Down With You Into Your Sea Of Sorrow. And Now, Your Family Are More Distant To You Than Mere Acquaintances. And So For The Sake Of All That Care For You, I Hope You Realize This And Stop Acting Like A Child Or Just Go And Die A Swift And Painless Death. Stop Worrying Others With Your Insignificant Self, Unless You Require A Coup de Grâce, In Which I'd Gladly Deliver. Just So That You Know, Your Behavoiur Reminds Me Of My 4 Year Old Self.

Perhaps You Have Yet To Understand The True Value Of Friendship. And I Hope For Your Sake You Never Do, For The Price You Have To Pay May Break Your Very Existence.

And You're Lucky That I Got To Know Of These Details Later Instead Of Earlier, For You'd Not Have Lived Here Still Otherwise.

Adieu To Y'all. Hope The Idiot Doesn't Do Anything More Foolish That What Has Already Been Done.

Break Into Pieces

Its Again, Closer To The Break, People. And The Past Week Of Inactivity Would Explain The Absence Of Updates.

And So This Post Is To Post A Question To Y'all Out There: Should I Get Myself A Facebook Account?

Normally The Answer Would Be 'No' Without Hesitation, But Recently I've Been Informed That Si Panjang Has Made A No19 Group There For Our Family, In Which I'm The Only One Left Yet To Join.

So Yeah, I'm In A Dilemma; To Stand Strong By My, Uh... Principle, Shall We Call, Of Being Anti-Facebook, Or To Oblige To This Unfulfilled Family Thing, Which I'm Keen To Play My Part... And I Need Y'all To Help Me Decide. I've Placed The Polls On The Right.

So Until The Decision's Been Made, Adieu To Y'all.

17th November 2009

Has Passed Like The Other 17 Years. Or Not, Because At Least There Was Still A Celebration, Albeit A Tiny One. Thanks Y'all From Fan's Tutorial Group Who Where Here To Celebrate For Me, Eventhough We Barely Knew Each Other For 5 Months. And Thanks For The Nike Bag, People Of No.53 And Maybe Even Some Of Those From Fan's Gang. That's My 1st Ever Nike Product In My Life LOLZXD

The Line Here Has Been As Horrible As Ever. Online Gaming Was Possible As The Sun Freezing As Soon As I Snap My Fingers. TM Says 1Gbps Line In 4 Hot Spots By The End Of 2010, So When The FUCK Will It Reach Kampar!? And By 2012, Will The Entire KL/Selangor Be Covered!? Hell, TM Is Planning On Something That Should've Been Done Ages Ago. They're So Reliable When It Comes To Doing A Poor Job, And Yet They Have The Guts To Directly Mock P1 WiMax With Their "Why Trust Beginners?" Advertisement In The Papers. Indeed, Big Mouth, No Brains; Not Walking The Talk.

So Yeah, Exams Real Soon, Assignments Handed In, Waiting To Be Presented. This Is Gonna Be One Hell Of A Semester.

Adieu To Y'all. Until TM Walks The Talk, Or Until I Get Impatient And Meet Y'all In Person, Whichever First.

Perfectly Flawed

That's Me People. I Just Realized How Flawed I Actually Am In The Field Where I Thought I Was Perfect In. Not Only Did I Lose The Sponsorships, I Lost By A Very Very Great Margin.

Confidence Came Crumbling Down Much Like The USA World Trade Center Twin Towers. But Then At Least There's Something To Work On; In This Field That Very Much Meant One Of The Few Things That Is Worth Being Proud Of. No Point Staying Stuck Without Having Chances Of Improvement, Right?

I Lost Count Of Which Week This Is, Though I Vaguely Remember It Being The 5th. Means Finals In 3 Weeks From Today. Or 4? Whatever It Is, It Also Means That Home Is That Much Closer.

So Yeah, Adieu To Y'all.

Ethereal Tear

Though I'd Be Tossed Like Garbage, It Would Seem That The One That Departs Willingly Will Be Treated Like Treasure Until Then.

I Understand Not Anymore What Goes On Around Me. These 2 Or 3 Uneventful Months Have Turned Me Into An Idiot. The Surrounding Dullness Has, In Turn, Dulled My Senses With It. Every Word And Action Has Deeper Ulterior Motives And Meanings Behind Them That I Can't Seem To Comprehend Anymore. My Intelligence Waning, My Strength Sapped, My Agility Crippled. A Living Hell, A Nightmare Of Reality.

Perhaps I Should Just Drink Myself To Stupor Like What Every Other Fool Does; I Don't Seem To Be Any Different, Let Alone Superior, To Them Anymore, So Any Harm In Stooping As Low As The Bunch That I've Become So Similar To? I'll Just Let Whatever Remains Of My Conscience Decide On That, While I Let Fate And Destiny Decide My Course In Life Like Leaves In The Wind.

And The Law Of Attraction Is A Fraud. I Just Remembered This Illusion That I've Lived All My Life Since I Was 11 Years Old; Felt Its Warmth, Enjoyed Its Embrace, Lived As If It Were Real, But Will It Ever BE Real? That's The Question That The Law Fails And Will Never Succeed In Answering. But I Shall Continue To Live In This Illusion, And To Keep Transcending This Greater Illusion That Mere Mortals Call Reality, For Only That Is Keeping The Inner Demon From Unleashing True Armageddon.

And With That, Adieu To Y'all. You'll Know When This Soiled Treasure Is Discarded.

Nether Vengeance

Today Was, In Short, A Calamity. What Started As A Rather Cheerful One Ended In Heat, Close to A Family Feud. And Initially I Was Supposed to Be The Star Of Sorrow For This Post. Initially. And I'd Say That It Is Not Fortunate That It Turned To Be The Other Way Around.

At First, I Felt Betrayed. My Place Was Taken By Another. What Was Rightfully Mine Is Now The Privilege Of An Outsider. Benefits That Were Exclusively Mine Were Robbed By Another. Though I Was Far From Speechless, I Still Have It In My Mind That Voicing Them Out Would Lead To Further Misunderstanding, And With That Another Heartbreak Was Kept, Or Rather, Remained, Silent.

Although Predicted, I Never Expected It To Have Come So Soon... But Perhaps If I Have Truly Forseen This Event Then I Should Have Braced Myself For It, Regardless of How Soon It Came. Indeed, I Felt Like A Soiled Cloth Tossed Away, Replaced By A New One.

But All That Changed. And What Would've I Told Another I Realized I Should've Told Myself Too:

Minna mo Shounen da.
Ore wa Wakaru, Kimi no Kimochi, Demo Genjitsu wa Kore:
Riyuu wa So Kantan ja Nai yo。

One Of The Many Fears Of Counselors Not Written In Text Books, Or That I Missed: Saying The Worng Things At The Wrong Time. And That, I'm Given First Hand Experience...

And Sorry Guys. I Lied About 2012 Being Merely So-So. But You Should Just Watch It For Yourselves To Know How It Actually Was, For I Fear Our Perceptions Differ Again.

And I Have 5 Hours to Sleep Before I Go For A Battle For Sponsorships, And I Intend To Give My All, Deprived Of Sleep Or Otherwise.

Adieu To Y'all. And Infinite Apologies.

Weak Week

This Week Was, In Short, NOT COOL.

Wednesday Was A Real Killer. Midterm And Right After That We Had To Meet For A Whole Day To Finish Up An Assignment That's Due The Next Day. Lost Loads Of Sleep There. And Today Something Unpleasant Was Abruptly Announced That Has Left Most of Us On The Edge. Won't Wanna Elaborate Yet, Because People Should Not Worry About This Yet, And When They Should, The Problem Would've Been Resolved, Peacefully Or Otherwise, Which Ends Their Reason To Worry. I Can't Say I'm Not Negatively Affected As Well, But Guess I'd Look At The Brighter Side Of Things: One Less Liability To Look After.

All I Can Say Is: See The World For What It Is, Feel The Pain Of Reality For Yourself, And Be Grateful For For The Providence That You Chose To Discard, For You Won't Find Another As Good, And For Your Sake I Hope That What You Have Abandoned Is Not Lost To You Should You Realize You Need It Again.

Net Life Has Definitely Taken Its Toll On People, And I'm Feeling Kinda Down That I'm Glad I'm Not Alone. Oh Well, Hope Things Change Soon.

Adieu To Y'all While I Continue Hogging Fan's PC -.-'

Law Of Attraction?

A Very Far-Fetched Theory (I Still Cannot Accept It As A Law, As It Is Defiable) In The Book/DVD 'The Secret'. For Those Who Haven't Already Know What's This About, It Basically Means That Just By Thinking And Feeling Continuously What You Want Without It Being A Chore And It'll Come True Some Time Sooner Or Later. Debatable IMO, But I'd Say This Topic Is Abstract As The Supernatural, So It's Wiser Not To Bother.

Why The Heck Am I Talking About This Of All Things? Since Today Is A Day Before The Midterms Mr Yusoff, Our Psychotherapy Lecturer, Decided That We Should Watch This Instead Of Letting Students Pester Him With Tip-Begging.

And I Found Myself Playing 'Borderlands' Again. Pitiful Me.

Thanks To Assignments And Midterms, Nothing Really Gets The Chance To Happen. It's The Same Rote Routine Of Doing Stuff For Those Assignments And Presentations And Studying For Midterms And Exams. And All That Cramped Into 7 Weeks For The Short Semester. And Is It Just Me Or Does Bachelors Degree Life Take The Essence Of Life Away? And I Mean It Literally, Because The More I Progress With This 3 Year Course The More I Feel That It's Getting More And More Repetitive. And Interesting Stuff That Should Happen In Between Are Getting Less And Less. Yeah, Yeah, People Are Gonna Start Throwing At Me The "It's Just 2 Semesters, Who Are You To Judge" Shit But That's How It Feels Like, 2 Sems Or Otherwise.

And I Continue To Have My Mind Occupied With Gundams. And As I Do So, So Do More Braincells Fly Away Just As Money Would If I Materialize What I Visualize.

With That, Adieu To Y'all As We All Continue Listening To The 3 Hearts. XD

P.S.: Thanks To Revision, I Think I May Have A Form Of Superiority Complex...

Darkness Also Illimunates

A Cool Phrase Taken From Saw The Game. Though The Game Itself Would Be Hard To Understand Without Watching At Least The First 3 Movies, PLaying The Game Itself Is Like Watching Another Movie Of The Series; Gory Enough To Make You Sick.

Went To Ipoh To Watch 'Ninja' Last Saturday. Though The Title Was One That Really Got Me Into It And All The Cool Fighting Action, The Story Just Simply Sucked. Sorry Guys For Dragging Y'all Along With Me For That Crappy Movie. Hope 2012 Would Be Better, Which Comes This Thursday.

Got Hooked On To A Game Called 'Borderlands', An FPS RPG With A Level System, Recently, And Now I Find It Real Hard To Resist The Temptation Of Playing It.

There Were Loads Of Other Things I Wanted To Say, But My Mind Is Copletely Dominated By Gundam Kits Now, So I'll Just Leave It Here.

Adieu To Y'all.

The Thing About Life

One Thing I Really Hate About Campus Life When You Have To Live Far Away From Home Is That Mom Is Far Away As Well, And I Can't Rant To Her About Stuff As Freely As I Would At Home. But Then Again, When I'm At Home, Things Are Relatively More Tolerable Due To Habituation That There's No Need To Rant. Ah... Life... Either It Gives You Shit Without The Toilet, Or The Toilet Without The Shit.

Which Reminds Me Of A Saying Regarding Condoms, Which Goes Like This "...(Fill With Whatever) Is Like A Condom; Better To Have But Not Need It Than To Need But Not Have It." Applies To Home As Well. Best To Have Mom Close By And Not Needing To Rant That Needing To Rant But Having Mom So Far Away T.T

Shit Is Being Stirred By The Shit Stirrer (Duh) And The Shit Stirrer Is Really Getting On My Nerves. Oblivious To This Fact Of Course, As Always, As The Person Carries On Stirring Shit And Throwing Them At The Ceiling Fan, Literally The Saying When The Shit Hits The Fan.

Sorry To Y'all For All The Shit In Today's Post. I'm Damn Bored And The Arse Of A Shit Stirrer Is Just Making My Bad Mood Worse.

And Speakin Of The Shit Stirrer This Time, My Lecturer Just Said That It Is Normal For Women To Be More Prone To Narcissism. So Naturally Asylums Would Have More Severe Female Narcissist Than There Would Be Men. In Fact There's One Within A 30metre Radius Of My Current Position That Has A Rightful Place In One. And This Person Makes Me Wonder If Narcissism And Defaming Tendencies Come Hand In Hand, Because The Person Can't Help But Indulge In Excessive Self Boasting And Admiration to Extents Of A Moth Wanting to Be A Firefly, And Condemning All Other Fireflies For Being Naturally Better, Albeit In A Very Sarcastic Way.

So To All The Girls And Women I Know Who Have Normal Levels Of Self Esteem Instead Of Being Overly Narcissist, You Have My Admiration, Respect And Love. For Vanity Should Come With Sensibility, And It Aggravates Me To See Turkeys Keep Calling Themselves Phoenixes.

Adieu To Y'all. Hopefully You've Enjoyed The 3 Hearts That Are Still Being Played.

絶望社会 / Zetsubou Shakai / Society Of Despair

Quote From Mom: I Guess Kampar's Pretty Famous Now, With All The Deaths...

(Shouldn't That Be Infamy Rather Than Fame!?)

Indeed, Parents (And God Parents) All Over Are Calling To Make Sure Their Young Ones Are Safe And To Further 'Advise' Them To Not To Go For Any Picnicking So Close To The Waters. And To Those Who Lost Their Lives, I Can Only Hope That For Your Sake You Don't Have A Next Life To Be Reincarnated In.

Much Has Transpired Since The Last Post, And The Lazy Me Failed To Find The Motivating Inspiration To Post Anything Until Now. But To Sum Them Up...

1. I Have A Tutor That Claims To Be A Psychic That Talks To Jesus(Supposedly Anyone Can Do That) And Gets A Response( Supposedly That's The Hard Part). Though I Favour Some Of Her Views Regarding Religion, There Are A Considerable Number Of Discrepancies In Her Stories. And The Fact That She Boasts To No End (Literally In Chinese I'd Say "Blow Cow Blow Water") Really Gets Me On Edge At Times.
2. There's A Subject In Which The Lecturer And Tutor Really Seem Like They're Battling For Power And Authority. The Lecturer Says "Consult Only Me" And The Tutor Brags On And On About What She Knows And Has Accomplished In The Field. Sigh... To See Such Things Among Working Adults... And In The Education Field...
3. Father's Choices Of Blunt Words Hasn't Changed. And It Seems That He's The Type That Doesn't Like People Who's Eaten More Salt Than Him, And Desperately Tries To Convince People That Whatever He Enjoys Is Also Enjoyable To Others, Even When They Have Grown Tired Of It. I Wonder How He'd Accept The Fact That His Son Has Secretly Eaten More Salt Than Him...? Heh, He'd Probably Not Ever Know Of It. The Moment He Does Will Be The Moment When Either He Or I Die A Premature Death. Maybe Even Both. Heh.

Oh Well, What Can I Say Besides That This World Has Left Me In Despair?

Just To Rant, But It's Been 10 Months Since I Last Touched A PS3. WHEN WILL I HAVE ONE OF MY OWN!?

Adieu To Y'all. Hope To Do Something With This Motivation While It Lasts.

P.S.: Today's The Second Anniversary Of Godma's Passing.