Accepting An Immortal's Death

Somewhat Got Over The Fact That Desired Company Is Never Always Yours.

The Incident Today No Doubt Stressed Me To No End. Hell, Merely Thinking Of It Now Makes Me Wanna Tear My Own Heart Out, Condense It With Rat Poison And Shove It Down The Throat Of The One Responsible. But Then Again, Who Am I To Complain? There Are People Who Go Through Worse, For Longer. A Good Friend At That.

What Happened Today Really Made Me Think If I Can Ever Survive In The Outside World. Regardless Of How Much I Thought I have Changed, In The End I'm Still The Same Wolf That Sticks To Its Pack, Although There Have Been Multiple Different Packs That This 'Lone' Wolf Has Called Family.

Being A Part Of UTAR Kampar PY T2 May 2009 Made Me Feel Like I Was Being In Another Small Community. Sure, The Lecture Classes Are Made Up Of 5 Tutorial Groups, But Somehow Or Rather, I Feel That I Can Never Be A Part Of The Large Society And Always Stuck Within The Small Community. Now That 'Fate' Will Have Us Separated, It Got Me Wondering How Am I To Cope With Life Next Sem, Where Of The Family Of 26, Supposedly Only 6 Or 7 Will Be In The Tutorial Group I Was Innocently Led Into.

The Whole Day Was Wasted Ghost Hunting (Today Was The 14th Day Of The Lunar Calendar's 7th Moon, Supposedly The Most Ominous Day Of Every Lunar Year) And Thinking About How To Survive The Next 3 Months, Not Forgetting How To Reunite This Family. It Never Occurred To Me That There May Be Some That Wished For Change, That Some Are Scum That Should Leave The Family And Some Other Nobler Ones Should Take Their Place. I Won't Deny It; I'm One Such Individual, But This Arrangement Is totally Not What I Had In Mind.

Finally I Thought, If I Could Call The Initial 26 People Family, Why Can't I Do The Same For The New 30? I've Done It In Every Freaking, Miserable Year That Has Education Play A Major Role In It, Including Foundation, So Why Can't I Do It Now? Could It Be That I, Myself, Believe In Fate? Could It Be That I Believe The 26 Of Us Were Fated to Be Together? Could It Be That I Do Not Want To Know More People, To Not Have Any More In My Circle Of Acquaintances Than Necessary? Possibly True, For After All, How Many Of Them Actually Made A Difference In My Life? The Number Was Great In Foundation, And Is Not Very Much Less Here. But Could It Be That The Initial Few Matter And The Rest Do Not? But Then Again, What Difference Does It Make, Ultimately? Why Is It Still So Hard To Part With The People Whose Bond With Them You're Not Even Certain Yet? What's The Fear Of Meeting New People Besides Getting Hurt Unnecessarily, Which Both Are Also Inevitable?

Damn, The Childish Infatuation And Lust Should've Been Long Gone History Already. I'm 18 for The Devil's Sake, A Young Adult In This World Of Mortals! Even My Teenage Years Are Drawing To A Close! How Can I Still Have Desires, Emotions And Behaviours Of An Immature Weakling!?

In The End I'm Glad I'm Reminded That I Have A Friend That's In A Situation Worse Than Mine, And That Tells Me I Should Accept Things For What They Will Be. And Here I Am Claiming To Be Empathetic Towards Her And Yet I'm Ranting On And On About Something So Trivial. Sorry Le-Anne, But I Guess I Truly Understand Now How Your Life Has Been In UNITAR All This While.

And So This Issue Has Come To A Temporary Close. Yes, Just Temporary. I'm Not Giving Up Going Against Accursed 'Fate' Just Yet.

Adieu To Y'all. With The Close Of This Chapter Marks My True Understanding Of Empathy.

To Be Dragged 6 Feet Underwater...

Pissed I Am That What Happened Today Happened. Still Am And Still Wished It Never Did. Will Remain So Until The Situation Has Been Remedied. Don't Expect Me To Appear Before You Until It Is. If It Can't, Well, Then May The One Responsible For My Agony Taste Hell From This Moment On To Eternity.

Although This Incident Has Helped The Final Episode Of The Devil's Saga (Which Was Stumped For The Past 3 Months) Reach One Step Closer To Completion, Make No Mistake, I AM IN NO WAY HAPPY THAT WHAT HAPPENED HAD HAPPENED! There Will NOT Be A Second Time Or I WILL Purge You To A Crisp With The Inferno Of Hell MYSELF!

I Should Have Ended Your Life For This... For Robbing From Me What Was Rightfully Mine... Consider Yourself Lucky That I Did Not, And Let You Drag Me Into The Hell That You've Brought Upon Us, Intentional Or Otherwise.

Adieu To Y'all. And Be Prepared To Vanish From The Face Of This World Lest You Push Me Further...

Homesick...? ME!? Damn...

These 4 Days Back At Home Made Me Realize How Homesick I Actually Am. I've Never Felt This Way The Whole Year Last Year, Nor Have I For The Past 12 Weeks. Probably Because Of The Really Short Stay At Home That I Didn't Get To Enjoy Home For What It Is. But Now... I Even Miss Climbing Up The Stairs to The 2nd Floor.

Here, Back Home... So Many Things That I Actually Miss...:

1. I Miss My Bed
2. I Miss My Pillow
3. I Miss The Box Of My Lightning-Fried Edifier
4. I Miss My Damn Expensive Cooling Pad (The Only One That Can Ensure Acer Does Not Go Boom During An Intense, Hot Gaming Session)
   
5. I Miss My Table Fan That's Constantly Blowing At My Face
6. I Miss The Junk Lying Around My Room That Really Reminds Me That I'm Still At Home
7. I Miss The Line Here That's Countless Times Better Than Kampar
8. I Miss The Fridge And Kitchen Cabinet That I Can Always Open Whenever I Need Something To Bite
   
9. Most Of All, I Miss Mom

But Then Again, Being Home Just Isn't Complete With Merely Home. I Miss This Neighbourhood Just As Much. Especially Goddad's Place:

1. I Miss Godma Who Hung Herself
2. I Miss Her Cooking
3. I Miss Their Curry Puffs That Are The Best Of The Best
   
4. I Miss His Words Of Wisdom
5. I Miss Chatting With Them
6. I Miss The Astro At Their Place (Especially Animax, AXN And NatGeo)
7. I Miss The Blanket And Towel I Left There
8. I Miss The Air-Con There
   

Other Stuff/Places/People That I Miss In The Area That I Call Home...:

1. Ah Hou And His Games Store In Paragon
2. McD Just A Kilometer From Here
3. Times Square (Freakin Cheap Arcades) And Low Yat Plaza (RAZER RULEZ)
   
4. The MCA Seraya Gang (And Midnight Tea Sessions With Them At Mamak-King)
   
5. The People Of No.19, 17/21B Street 2008/2009
6. Last But Not Least, The People Of UTAR TB1 PJ May 2008

Speakin Of TB1, Happy Belated Birthday To Maggie, And Infinite Apologies For Not Calling You Guys Of For Tea, One Of The Reasons Being Fan's At Taiping, And Without Him Around, The % Of Anything Happening Is Significantly Low.

And Now I'll Be Preparing To 'Return' To My Kampar Home Today. See Y'all During The Sem Break, Hopefully.

Until Then, Adieu To Y'all. XD

Bitter-Sweet Are The Fruits Of Vengeance...

Finally. Now It's Your Turn To Feel The Pain.
Perhaps Now You Understand A Fraction Of My Feelings. How Does It Feel When The People You Are Supposedly Closest With Are The Same Ones That Hurt You Greatly? Now That You Have Felt Some Of My Pain, I Expect You To Grow From It; Learn That Not Everything Goes Your Way Every Time, That At Times It Is You That Must Compromise For Others, That Sometimes When Something Is Said You Should Take It Seriously Instead Of Always Taking It As A Joke And That Your Selfishness When You Have Invoked An Argument With ME Will Get You Nowhere.

Unfortunate It Is That An Innocent Must Be Involved In This Otherwise Righteous Incident.

Perhaps You'd Think That It Is I Who Should Apologize. Make No Mistake, The One At Fault Was Neither Me Nor The Other Involved In Snapping Some Sense And Wisdom Into Your Shallow Head.

Well, That's One Event That I Hope Will Have Some Visible Change In Someone's Character.

Adieu To Y'all. The Vengeful Spirit Is Finally Calmed.

An Interesting Adventure, No Doubt

On a Friggin Saturday, The Adventurous Few Of Us With A Few Adventurous Advertising Fellas Went To Friggin Ipoh For A Friggin Movie Called "The Proposal" Which Was Okay But i Was A little Disappointed Because G.I.Joe Was Late And I Didn't Wanna Go Home Late. So Of Course Before Goin Home We Had Our Chance At McD (After So Long). There's So Much To Eat But So Little Cash... *sobs*

On The Way Back Was Where The Most Unexpected Stuff Happened. I Myself Was Sitting in The Passenger Seat In Front During The Ride Home, And My Desires To Fall Asleep Was Not Granted Because I Had To Keep An Eye Out For The Road Signs. When We Were Close To Home, We Noticed There Were A Lot Of Blinking Red Lights. It Never Occured To Anyone That The Lights Indicated A Police Roadblock.

Hey, Hey, I Know It's The First Day Of Your Fasting But You Guys Don't Have to Be So Punctual On These. Well, No One Expected Anything Until We Were Asked To Pull Over And The Cop Pointed At Vingent(The Driver)'s Shoulder. Yes, His Shoulder. Notice Anything Missing? Anything That Should BE on His Shoulder?

That's Right: The FRIGGIN SEATBELT!!!

And That Was The Shock Of Our Lives. How Could I, Sitting Right Next To The Driver Have His Seatbelt On While The Driver Himself Did Not? Well, Don't Ask Me.

So He Did The Usual Routing Of Checking The Driver's License, Everyone's I.C., And Then Told Us "Okay, I'm Gonna Give You A RM200 Ticket For Not Having Your Seatbelt On." Then There Was A Short Pause Before Askin Vingent To Get Out Of The Car. They Had A 'Brief Chat' Which Sounded Like "You Know What Happened Right? Driving On The Highway With No Seatbelt And All. Well I'll Give you Guys Some Time To Discuss About It."

So We Were Like "Discuss? Wow, He Looked So Serious And Strict And All And Yet He's Telling Us To Discuss?" So There Was Some Negotiation And All And He Finally Let Us Go For RM40. The Rest Of The Way Home Vingent Was Going On And On With "Damn, These Guys Suck More Blood At Kampar Than They Do At KL" And "Damn, Why No One Reminded Me to Put ON The Seatbelt?"

And That Wraps Up A Friggin Saturday With Someone Being Insomniac Thanks To The Whole Incident.

Sunday Was Spectacular Because of The Dinner. The 3 Guys Of No.53 Ordered 6~7 Different Kinds Of Food That Costed Around 35 Bucks And Gobbled All Of That While The Others Were Looking At Us Asking "What Kind Of Shock You Guys Went Through That's Affecting You So Badly?"

So...

To Sum It Up, Malaysian Coppers Are As Corrupt As Ever, Sucking More Blood Than Ever Too.

Adieu To Y'all While I Learn How To Make Megurine Luka Sing For Me.
HELL YEAH VOC@LOID2!!!

Vocaloid Mania

I'm Almost Addicted To Vocaloids!!!



Credits To Maggie's Friend Who First Found It. This Is Just Another Version With English Translations Just In Case Anyone Out There Can't Read Chinese Like Me.

And Thanks To That I'm Now A Fan Of Vocaloids...

Lyrics Are Your Usual Asian Sad Love Kind Of Story With Its Own Unique Twist Which Gives It The Extra Touching Feel.

Another Filler Post No Doubt... Sorry Guys For This Video Fetish. I Think It's Just A Temporary Thing.

Again, Adieu To Y'all Just After A Brief Update.

Violin's Got A New Friend Called SAW!!!

Indeed. Hard To Imagine At 1st. But Hey, Check This Out:

Cool Huh? Though Many Say It Sounded Gh3y But Hey, It's A Saw, Not Your Average Musical Instrument.

Drama Here Is Getting Hotter And Hotter. From Hot Fiery Passion To Blazing Hot Gossip. Why? Well, Let's Just Say That Somethings Are Just. And Yes, Again The Passerby (Me) Has Been Chosen To Play A Small Part In The Show.

With Presentations Under Way, Here's The Best (Only) Pic Of Me In Formal Wear:



And The Reason I Think It's Good Is Because We're Both Havin The Extra 'Luxurious Layer' Which Rarely Comes By.

So Yeah, Another Filler Post.
Adieu To Y'all.